Facing Biology Head On

I had a close friend in college. In college she figured out that she was gay, and her love interest was me. We both finished college and set some expectations and live together. She has a kinesiology degree and worked as a personal trainer at a Golds Gym until they shut down. Her clients are all gay women, from bubbly fems to hard core butch. Love wise there is only me.

With our situation right now, she is unemployed and I work from home, we have gotten really close, to the point of seriously talking kids. The idea of her getting pregnant via intercourse is not an option, and some anonymous donor is also not an option, not to mention we can't afford it. I called a 'friend' from high school and asked if he would get me pregnant.

I had not had intercourse since high school, not memorable. The sessions until I was pregnant were not memorable either, they were actually very difficult. Having permission didn't help, I feel awful that I did it, but I am pregnant. Our horrid thought is getting her pregnant too. I know what I went through and I have not given permission. I know I can't deny her a baby, I just wish it didn't have to be this way.

I wasn't a virgin when I met her but she is. What I love about her is how pure she is, I know
I have to bite my lip and hopefully she will be pregnant in a jiffy. It took me three months and too many sessions. I love her more than words can express, knowing she will be in my friends arms and not mine makes me sick at the stomach.