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Gay Male / 67
Still Feel Ashamed After All These Years
I am a retired guy, I come to this site to read stories of men who have or want to have sex with men. I was raised in a very morally conservative household and anything close to dealing with homosexuality was seen as work of the Devil. When I was ten the boy next door, who was around 13 had me suck his penis. I loved sucking his penis, the taste, the feel, and the raw sexual intensity of it are my favorite memory of growing up. But I was also ashamed and I never spoke a word of it.
In middle school I had the opportunity to suck a man's penis. I ran into him at the park one afternoon when I had taken our dog out for exercise. He came over to pet our dog and he spoke to me and we walked together until we were over by the shed where they kept the lawn equipment. He unzipped his pants and showed me his penis. My eyes said what my mouth couldn't say. He offered to let me touch and hold his penis and he could see that I wanted to kiss it or suck it and he let me suck his penis. He got an erection and held my head still by my hair and he fucked my mouth and slapped my face with his penis. I thought I had peed my pants but I had my first ejaculation.
There are many other instances of me sucking on men's penises, always in the corner or the dark, all through high school, in college and after I went to work. I learned how to use my hand to help the man reach climax and one of my pleasures has always been helping him ejaculate. If he ejaculates on my face that's good, in my mouth that's good, in my hair that's good, on my chest that's good. I get a very deep pleasure when a man ejaculates.
My parents are long dead, and I moved away from my home town after college. I didn't get married until I was 36, it was a mistake and I got divorced a year later. I worked for the Electric Utility for over 40 years until I retired. As a retiree it has been more difficult to find a man to please orally and this shut in period has been the worst, I come to this site to find relief to read about men's experiences, I have to masturbate of course. I would love to just meet a man in a dark parking lot and suck his penis but there are no dark parking lots near where I live now.
Thanks for letting me express my frustrations.
In middle school I had the opportunity to suck a man's penis. I ran into him at the park one afternoon when I had taken our dog out for exercise. He came over to pet our dog and he spoke to me and we walked together until we were over by the shed where they kept the lawn equipment. He unzipped his pants and showed me his penis. My eyes said what my mouth couldn't say. He offered to let me touch and hold his penis and he could see that I wanted to kiss it or suck it and he let me suck his penis. He got an erection and held my head still by my hair and he fucked my mouth and slapped my face with his penis. I thought I had peed my pants but I had my first ejaculation.
There are many other instances of me sucking on men's penises, always in the corner or the dark, all through high school, in college and after I went to work. I learned how to use my hand to help the man reach climax and one of my pleasures has always been helping him ejaculate. If he ejaculates on my face that's good, in my mouth that's good, in my hair that's good, on my chest that's good. I get a very deep pleasure when a man ejaculates.
My parents are long dead, and I moved away from my home town after college. I didn't get married until I was 36, it was a mistake and I got divorced a year later. I worked for the Electric Utility for over 40 years until I retired. As a retiree it has been more difficult to find a man to please orally and this shut in period has been the worst, I come to this site to find relief to read about men's experiences, I have to masturbate of course. I would love to just meet a man in a dark parking lot and suck his penis but there are no dark parking lots near where I live now.
Thanks for letting me express my frustrations.
