It Was A Long Time Before I Was Able To Deliver Myself To My Desires

First things first. Even as a young boy I had a fascination with my penis, and the penises of other boys. It was in the showers of junior high that I got to see their penises. Later when I was in boot camp, only the penises were penises of men even if we were all still boys being prepared for war. A soldier in my platoon asked me to suck his penis. Our drill sergeant walked in on us in the showers. That's why I didn't go to Vietnam.

I went to bookkeeping school and found work with a construction company even with a dishonorable discharge. As time went on I kept my desire to myself. Admiring men from afar. The seventies came and went and things became very difficult in the eighties and being an admirer from afar was a good place for me to admire them.

It wasn't until I was in my fifties that I acted and met a man whose penis I could admire not only with my eyes, but also in my mouth against my face. And surrender to his penis I had dreamt about for years.