Curious

So for the best part of a year I’ve been curious, I wanted to feel a cock of another guy make him cum possibly taste him and if things went well I’d wanna fuck them, there this one night last week the time come and I met a guy who was keen, we made it back to the car and when we were sitting there I had no desire for anything to happen didn’t excite me out anything, I spoke with the guy and he was good but he still wanted to suck me off. After a bit of time I agreed and let him suck me off, I could only get a semi hard on and still managed to cum in about 2 minutes. I didn’t touch him out even look at him, just put the sweet back and tried getting as hard as I could.
After all is said and done definitely not curious anymore or for me. I still enjoy online fun with everyone but to feel the Touch is women.