Want To Be Pegged

I’m a married father of 2. I live in the rural south and I’m a very humble country guy. I work hard. I try to be the best man I can be. And on the outside I’m just a normal everyday guy. But on the inside. There’s much more to the story. I’ve been having sex with guys for about 10 years off and on. Usually only a couple times a year. I have a terrible guilty conscience when it comes to that.

I get so fucking horny for cock or ass. I seek it out. I meet with a guy and everything is great. But then when I cum. It’s like I snap back to reality and bam. I feel like shit. Even before I got married I felt this way so it’s nothing new. But my confession today is that. I really really want to be pegged by my wife. I crave a good fucking. Just don’t like taking the risk anymore of catching something. (I like being fucked bare)

But my wife won’t even let me fuck her ass. So how do I get her to fuck mine?? She used to rim me. But now she says that’s wrong and we shouldn’t do that anymore. I really really want her to strap on a 10” black rubber cock and pile drive my ass into next Wednesday. I love being fucked. Any help is appropriated.