Becoming Feminine

I put transsexual but I am not there just yet working on it. I started about 13 years ago when I had a diabetic coma and got bad nerve damage. I have poor blood flow to my penis now and did on my feet and hands but they came back. I tried meds shots of testosterone but still am limp. About 9 years ago decided not to fight it and started becoming feminine. I started getting a full body wax at least once a month and let me tell you the first times are the hardest it hurts but now it's worth it. As they say no pain no gain lol. I was on a lot of insulin and from weight lose the doctor lowered the dosage so had a lot of insulin and always did the refill when it was due not backing off. So I had all this insulin in a pen form and started injecting it into my testicles. I do it anywhere from 2 to 4 times a week between 5 to 20 units into each testicle. It dose not hurt when you stick it in and as you inject it in your get a very warm feeling and a slight dull ache like if u get tapped in the balls but not hit hard. Been doing it for about a year now. The gotten smaller and even soft I still have orgasms just now no sperm comes a dry orgasm. I ordered a breast pump and now have between a b and c cup. Because I am killing my testicles am producing no testosterone so my hair comes in very light now and getting curves in different places but got to see a doctor to get on ht hormones .
I been dressing and having sex with married men. I always had a attraction for men. Sex with women really never excited me like sex with men. About 5 years ago finely got up the nerve to go out as a women. I was scared but excited