Fetish Friends

I want a female friend or friends that I can share my secret fetish to and they try it out for me. It's a crazy one but I would love to see it happen in person and not just on video. It would be even better if they enjoyed it as much as I do. The last friend i had didnt understand me and was judgmental I want the opposite of that. An whatever weird secrets they have they trust me enough to share with me. That our weird interest connects us and be our little secret from everyone. I know it's weird but why is that so hard to find?