I Cheated On My Husband.

I'm 34 and I've been married for 11 years. My husband is 12 years older than me and we have 3 children.
I don't know if it's because he's getting older but my husband Steve is becoming a little neglectful of my needs.
It didn't really bother me until our wedding anniversary when I surprised him with a sexy lingerie set. I was horny and wanted sex but he said he was tired and went to sleep.
It pissed me off but I put it to the back of my mind.
Then a few weeks ago we got new neighbours Lee and Mandy. A couple in their 40s and their two sons.
They introduced themselves one evening and gave us a bottle of wine which we shared with them. They were only here for an hour but I couldn't help notice Lee kept staring at my legs as I had a pair of shorts on.
It wasn't much but I knew that look and I couldn't stop thinking about Lee fucking me.
One afternoon when Steve was at work I thought I'd call and see if Lee and Mandy were settling in ok.
I put some make up and a sexy outfit that showed plenty of leg and cleavage.
I knocked and Lee answered. He looked me up and down approvingly, smiled and invited me in. He explained that Mandy was at work and he was assembling some bedroom furniture, before asking me if I'd like a guided tour. I said yes please and flirted with him all the way around the house. I cracked sexual jokes and double entendres and tried to make it crystal clear that I wanted him.
The tour ended at the bedroom and he playfully patted my arse and winked as he reached for the door handle. My heart was beating so hard and my pussy was sopping wet thinking about what might happen.
However when the door opened my heart sank.
There was a guy on his knees with a screwdriver in his mouth wrestling with a half made cabinet.
That's that then I thought.
"Emma, this is Dan, Dan meet Emma" Lee said.
I said I thought I'd better leave but Lee was having none of it.
"No you fucking don't. You know what you came here for. You've been acting the slut and coming on to me for the last 20 minutes."
I tried to speak but nothing came out as the gravity of the situation hit me.
Lee took my hand and pressed it on his trousers against his crotch. I felt his hardness and the last of my resistance melted away. I rubbed and squeezed his cock as I felt him kiss my neck.
"You came here to get fucked didn't you?" Lee said.
I nodded.
"You want this don't you Emma. Say it Emma. Say you want my cock"
I wanted to say it. I hadn't felt so turned on for years. I couldn't get Steve and the kids out of my head though. Lee was behind me now groping my braless tits through my top and grinding his hard dick against me. He licked my ear and whispered "Tell me you want fucking"
"I want you to fuck me"
Shit. I said it and felt a flash of regret but Lee was incessant.
"Tell me you want my cock"
"I do. I want your cock but..."
I looked over at Dan who had his cock out. I couldn't believe what was happening.
"Tell me you love cock Emma. Tell me your a dirty slut and you love cock"
Fuck. My mind was racing. Part of me wanted to stop but a bigger part of me wanted fucking. I'd never cheated on Steve before, not even with one guy let alone two. I knew what I wanted though and I couldn't stop myself.
"I'm a slut and I love cock. I want your cock inside me" I said.
That was all the encouragement Lee and Dan needed. Dan lifted my skirt and yanked my knickers down. He rubbed roughly up and down my wet slit, two of his fingers slipping inside me.
"Fuck me Dan, the slags soaking wet."
I heard Lee taking his trousers off as Dan did the same in front of me.
"Kneel down you dirty bitch" Dan said.
I'd never been spoken to like this before and I loved it. I felt like a dirty bitch and it turned me on being told it.
I got on my knees and Dan thrust his cock at me. I opened my mouth and took him to the back of my throat. I struggled to suck him properly because his cock was so thick. It was a bit shorter than my husband's but the fattest I'd ever seen.
Having always preferred girth over length, I remember thinking that he'd feel amazingin my pussy.
Lee had been eating out my wet c**t and arse as I sucked Dan and then I felt him rubbing his cock head up and down my wet slit.
I almost gagged on Dan's fat dick as Lee slammed into me. Fuck he was big. He stayed still with his cock throbbing inside me, filling me perfectly.
Then he started fucking me hard. He grabbed my hair and pushed me onto Dan's cock almost choking me. All the time he was fucking me he was calling me a slut, a slag, a whore, a dirty bitch etc, all whilst pulling my hair and slapping my arse hard.
My senses were all over the place. I'd never been fucked like this before and I couldn't believe what I'd been missing out on.
"Fuck me harder you dirty bastard" I said surprising myself. I rocked back and forth loving the feeling of being skewered by two big dicks. Both hard cocks fucking my mouth and pussy were now relentlessly slamming in and out of my mouth and twat.
Every time I gagged on Dan's fat cock, my pussy tightened and Lee groaned.
He said he was getting close and pulled out of me with a plopping sound. Dan laid down on the floor and held his cock so it was pointing straight up so I straddled him and guided a second cock inside me. I'd never had 2 guys before and the feeling of another dick inside me so soon after Lee's was awesome.
I started to ride Dan, loving how his fat dick was stretching my c**t to it's limits. Lee stood next to us, grabbed my hair and forced my face onto his cock. I'd never sucked a cock after it had been in my pussy and it tasted bitter and tart.
Lee fucked my mouth as he held my head and slapped my tits hard. He was still shouting obscenities like "Ride that dick you filthy slut" and "Go on Dan fuck the dirty whore she fucking loves it"
He was right, I was fucking loving it. I was grinding my clit down hard and started to cum. I'd never climaxed before just through fucking and it was intense. My whole body shuddered and I tried to take Lee's cock out of my mouth to scream in ecstasy but he held my head firm as he fucked my throat. I rode Dan like a woman possessed and he suddenly grabbed my hips, pulled me down hard and came deep inside me. I felt every powerful spurt of spunk splash against my cervix with each pulse of Dan's cock. It was such a satisfying feeling.
I thought Lee was going for my pussy again but instead he wanked his cock inches from my face and told me to open my mouth. I did as I was told and as Dan's cock softened inside me, Lee spunked in my mouth with some going in my hair and on my face.
My husband had only ever cum in my mouth a couple of times and I spat it out both times but I greedily swallowed down Lee's big load.
"Good girl" Dan said and Lee called me a dirty fucking bitch.
Instant guilt hit me and I hurriedly dressed and fled leaving both guys still naked.
Later I was wracked with guilt and shaking when Steve and the kids got home. I tried not to think about it but it was ALL I could think about. Two cocks, the taste of spunk, Dan's cum dribbling out of me as I climbed in the shower, it was all so hot. The reality was quite different. Not cool getting a wet pussy daydreaming about being spitroasted, slapped and called a whore whilst doing my daughter's homework with her. Also not cool wondering if either guy had an STI. Fuck I was stupid not to use condoms. And very not cool dodging Lee and Mandy all the time.
But I really want to do it again. All of it. And more.
I really don't know what to do. I want fucking like that again but I fear that cheating might be the only way.
I get so wet to the point of having to rub myself when I think about cheating.
What should I do?

Emma.