M 25 Having Sexual Affairs With My Boss M 39 And Neighbor F 47

I'm 25 years old man. I had 2 relationships in my past (both females). Right now, I'm single but in a weird physical relationship to which I'm not able to come out. I'm a straight person and not attracted to men. I'm in a physical relationship with my neighbour who is 47. She is mother of two, and it is purely consensual. I feel I'm slowly falling in love with her. I'm extremely sexually attracted to her. She is really innovative when we make love. The other thing is I'm in an occasional sexual affair with a guy of 39 years who stays in the same building and is my superior officer. I'm not attracted to him but it all started when we drank at his house. He is married but his wife and kids stay at his hometown. He doesn't let me use protection, and he says he doesn't have any such affairs other than with me. I want to stop it, but I feel pleasured with him too. Since I'm doing work from home whenever I feel horny and she is not available I end up calling my boss and we have a good love making session. This is happening more than often and the pleasure of anal sex is something I'm not able to handle. I feel as if I'm addicted to his ass but at the same time crazy for her as well. I want to stop this but at the same time I don't want to.

Confused..but at the same time I like it....