Discovering I Was Bbc Slut

I just want to start out by saying I am a young pale white college student with a somewhat feminine figure. I also am 5'8 and have medium length brown hair. I have both my ears pierced twice in each ear with the first ones being gauged to a size zero. I also have a nose ring on my right nostril and one tattoo of a bat below my right wrist. Besides everything I have just told you, I appear very straight to everyone that meets me and I have a girlfriend of 2 years so nobody would ever suspect that I actually love black dick! It all started when I was discovering what kind of porn I liked to watch. For some reason, in the beginning of puberty when I was around 12, I was attracted to watching gangbang porn. This always really got me going and the more I watched, the more I discovered the best gangbang videos I would find were "big black cock gangbangs." These always got me going because I guess it was a bit of a double taboo since my parents are both racists. For years I enjoyed watch a little petite white girl getting rammed by multiple giant black dicks like a rag doll and I honestly have no idea why. It just always got me going deep inside. So the more I jacked off in secret to this porn, the more I started to understand it. Yes, I did find the girls in the videos attractive but what I was finding more attractive were the big blacks cocks they would be taking multiple of at the same time. Whenever I realized this, the more I started to imagine myself as the petite little girls bouncing on those dicks. I mean I have a little twink body and I'm only 19 so it was very easy to imagine it. Then one day over the summer while my girlfriend was out of town, the desire grew inside of me and I found myself going over to her dresser and picking out the smallest pair of black lace panties and her red and white short shorts that came all the way up to my ass. I then paired it with one of her black crop tops and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked very slutty and feminine and I loved it. The thrill of it was so great I decided to make an anonymous profile on Grindr called "Snow Bunny" I figured it was a fiting name. I then found a picture of an anime bunny girl in a short black dress and put it as my profile picture. This worked great for me and it made me feel so sexy and mysterious. I then would get kicks out of having older middle aged men sending pictures of their hard dicks whenever I would send them my very tasty nudes of my pale white ass in various mini skirts and panties. This would be my normal play time whenever my gf was away but then one night, I was in the middle of doing that same thing I just mentioned with a guy named "Mike". He was another anonymous profile that lived about 5 miles away from me. Once I sent Mike a very sexy picture of me in lace panties and a mini skirt, he sent me back a picture of his massive black dick. It looked so yummy! After talking a bit more, he wanted to arrange for us to have some fun together. Now, I had been asked before by other random middle aged guys to go have some fun with them but I never accepted it just because Grindr always seemed a bit sketchy and I have never actually been a guy before. I have only ever used dildos on myself. This time was different though. It was exactly like what I had seen in porn. A delicious black cock that wanted to fuck my pale virgin ass. I had to do it. So I dressed in my slutty outfit: a black crop top, red booty shorts and a black thong and I got in my car and started towards his address he sent me. Whenever I arrived, I found myself in front of a very nice clean upper class suburban home. It was very safe looking actually. I knocked on his side door and he invited me in. Mike was a tall black man in his late 40's. He could even be older than my own dad! He was very nice and invited me to have a seat on his couch. I naturally agreed and sat down. He followed by sitting next to me. My heart was beating and I had butterflies. I had no idea what he was going to do to me and it was almost a sick rush. Mike moved his hand on to my pale leg and ran it up my thigh gently. He asked "How old are you?" I responded by saying I was 19. He then asked " I have a really big dick, are you sure you want this?" I then responded by biting my bottom lip and saying with a thirsty smile. "Yes, I would love it" This reaction made Mike smile and say "this is going to be fun" He then grabbed my legs and raised them up and took off my booty shorts and ran his black hand down the crouch of my panties before ripping them off and burying his tongue in my ass. He tongued my ass lovingly and I enjoyed every second of his warm tongue. By this point, I could not take it anymore and I raised up and told him "I want to suck that big black cock" Mike smiled and unzipped his pants revealing a massive black dick. It looked so hot that I just had to go for it mouth first. I licked and sucked and choked on his dick for the next five minutes realizing that I was having the time of my life! I could barely fit it all in my mouth but something about sucking that massive black dick was just so hot! Things seemed like they could not get any better until Mike finally stopped me and said "okay bunny time to feel this dick inside that tight ass of yours. He layed me on back and spread my legs open and followed up by lubing my tight asshole and his fingers. He then pushed his black fingers deep in my ass. This honestly hurt pretty bad at first. I started to feel pretty uncomfortable by the pain and Mike was so in to what he was doing he didn't even notice. The pain burned in my little pale ass from his big fingers and I gulped as I realized I was not prepared at all for what was about to happen. Mike took his fingers out and positioned his big black lubed dick tip right at my ass hole and started to push in. This burned even worse at first and I started to gasp as he did. Mike smiled and said "Aw come on bunny, don't stop being brave on me now before ramming his entire massive dick deep into my pale twink ass. It was like nothing I ever felt before. Both extreme pain but also extreme ecstasy. I was in total shock as just continued to ram this massive dick in and out of me with a lot of force. My legs started to shake and my eyes rolled back in my head from the pleasure. Yes it was painful but it was so hot to me that it didn't even matter. I loved having my ass being used as little white fuck toy by this man old enough to be dad and I just wanted to sit there and be his little white ragdoll. It was my first time being truly dominated, and it was in that moment I realized that I was a slut for black cock. He continued fucking the absolute life out of my little white ass and whenever he got close, he pulled out and faced in front of me with his dick in his hand. He told me "open up pale slut, let me cum on that cute tongue" I did exactly as he asked and said "aah" with my mouth open. He then busted his nut all over my tongue and face. It was a true cum shot of massive proportions and I loved feeling all of that hot goo on me. He then gave me a towel and told me to clean up. Once I did this, he put me back on me back and suck his tongue deep in my ass and started jerking me off at the same time as he ate my ass. This felt like heaven and I busted all over myself. He then gave me the towel once and then smoked some weed with me and sent me on my way before his wife got home. Whenever I got back in my car and had a moment to rationally process what just happened. I screamed out to myself in happiness while laughing " oh my God I just did that!" It was such a rush and I've enjoyed being a secret slut for black dicks ever since.