My Punishment

As a confident lesbian lawyer in the entertainment field earning in the comfortable six figures I could pay for whatever I needed, Whether it was having my hair done, or having my car fixed. I also paid for attention from young women. Always young women. I didn't have time for a relationship and I used a woman to find me company, sometimes for weekend escapes and sometimes I had them over for a 24 hour day. As I got older I liked younger and younger women, settling on young dancers, their bodies and their empty heads. I knew I had a problem when I found myself with a girl who turned out to be sixteen.

I got scared and found a therapist who gave me a hundred reasons as to why this happened but none of this helped I was totally fixated on young girls in their middle teens. I kept my hands off, but my fixation just got worse and worse. I decided to take a break and signed up for two week river cruise with nothing but old people, I was the youngest by a generation.

On the cruise I met this couple in their mid sixties, rich and traveled and she was worried about me eating alone and had me join them at their table. I volunteered that I was a lesbian and that I had gotten away to realign my life. In one conversation I dropped the expression about having had this one business experience where I had been torn a new asshole. The husband, a rich old man with an ego told me that maybe that is what I was looking for, what I needed, have my asshole fucked, maybe find some sailor who wanted to degrade me. His wife shut him up, but he stood by what he said and told me to give it a try. When we arrived in Amsterdam he gave me a number to call, totally discreet.

In Amsterdam I did just that, I called the number and I asked for a man in his fifties, I wanted someone older than me and told the service that I didn't want conversation, I wanted to be degraded. The man that came to my hotel room was well dressed, with glasses. I expected some truck driver. He asked me to undress and half way through he slapped me on the face and took me by the hair and pushed me down onto the bed and tied my hands one at a time to the bedframe. He never spoke, I got what must be the largest dildo ever shoved up my ass, he put this device on my face which pulled my nose back with hooks in my nostrils, he put a gag in my mouth and whipped my back and legs and buttocks until I was bleeding.

I was crying, really crying, I couldn't talk, I gagged trying to cough, he shoved the dildo up further in my ass, he dropped something in my ear, spit or something, He stood over me and pissed on my back. He left me like that, just walked out leaving me tied and bleeding with a dildo up my ass for the maids and security to find me the next morning. They asked if I wanted to press charges, I declined. I went to a clinic to have my cuts treated, over a dozen deep gashes from the whip. I went back to the hotel and cried.

I live in Los Angeles and Los Angeles has everything. From time to time I call this number and I have a man come to a hotel room. I never seen them, I don't want to see their face so I wear a blinders , I don't want them to talk. I don't know if it the same man or different men. I remind myself when I am cuddled up with a young waitress wanting to break into the entertainment business that my punishment will come later.

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