The Way I Want

I met my ex husband in college, I'd had one serious boyfriend in high school who I let fuck me. I sucked him and let him do it in my ass. My ex was only the second one who ever fucked me though I had sucked off 3 others between lovers. Through my husband I grew to really love my boobs, and my nipples abused. I like them hurt, really rough, bruising sometimes; actually most times. He'd put needles in them and slap and hurt me. He would pinch my nipples and twist them till I thought they were tearing off. I loved it, I actually came from it most times. We split up for the usual reasons, money problems, younger woman, no money because he spent it all on younger women.

The problem is this; how do I ask someone to hurt me like that. I had one guy who twisted them and pinched them hard, but not really as rough as I like. I find I can't cum without my boobs being hurt. I also like my ass spanked, sometimes probed with really wide objects to make it hurt. I have let 8 men fuck me in the past 2 years and one that I thought would turn out great. We were together 5 months and when I kept trying to get him to hurt me, he wouldn't. He called me some names, said I was too kinky for him and he didn't get off hurting women, and it was over.

I have only cum the three times my ex came over and had sex with me, cheating on his 24 year old girlfriend. It was only then that I got the rough stuff I like. He said that his current girl won't let him do it, she's too sensitive and it hurts too much. But he's not leaving the "young, tight pussy" as he calls it.