Letting Go

Over the past few years I have struggled with increasing gay urges and desires.I dated women and tried to repress these homosexual feelings but to no avail.

Last year the desires took me over and I stopped dating women.I masturbated at home to gay porn and fantasized about older men.I am 30 decent looking and I find many men over 50 sexy even homely unattractive men.

One October morning in 2019 I was hornier than usual.I passed by this middle aged guy late fiftyish who was asking for change outside a subway station.He was skinny about 5ft 9 160 with longish unkempt hair equally scruffy beard and wild eyes.He was very friendly and was hungry.He also needed a bed for the night.I felt sorry for him and drove him to a cheap motel at the outskirts of the city got him a room and breakfast in the attached diner.

Later back in his motel room he wondered how to ever thank me.I looked at him standing there and felt a strange horniness envelop me.Suddenly I wanted him sexually and tried to fight the guy urges.He looked at me intensely as if sensing my struggle.We can take a shower together he said and waited for a response.My heart pounded in lust as I nodded.He took off his clothes and I quickly took off mine.He walked naked to the shower and ran the hot water.I joined him naked and he looked up at me seductively as I was taller.He soaped my body as both our cut cocks stiffened and pressed together.Carlos wrapped his skinny arms around my neck almost like a woman would and kissed my mouth softly with his wet thin lips.His kiss excited me and I kissed him deeply back with my fuller lips.We necked madly like a couple in love.Carlos at some point dropped to his knees and gave me a very satisfying complete blowjob swallowing my big load of cum as I cried out in orgasm.I returned the favor and sucked his cock wildly draining his wet salty load as well.My first blow job ever felt natural and right.Later in bed we shared a lover's cigarette in the bliss of mutual need.I slept with him and the next day he moved into my apartment where we live as a loving couple now.It was love ar first sight and our love has only grown.My boyfriend has been fucking me with that 6 inch cut sexy cock of his for 9 months now and I fucking crave it inside my ass