Getting To Me

I have no memory of being affectionate or wanting affection. I have had sex once and I was the unwitting target, not a participant. I am accused of being cold, stuck up, full of myself. I don't agree I'm frigid. My one time sex is always on my mind, I sometimes have flashbacks when I touch myself. I did have a climax, like drowning, gasping for breath. I talked to a lesbian woman who suggested that to get to me the man, I am not a lesbian, has to force himself on me, like what happened that night in college. She says some lesbians react that way, they can't participate, they need a Mistress, I need a Master. Well, maybe but I'm not advertising for one.