Got Caught

So I guess you could call me bi to keep it simple. But more attracted to TS because I like cock but not dudes. All of this I have kept secret from everyone in my life including my GF of 10 years. I play with dildos and dress up like a girl and watch sissy porn but live a completely straight life. One weekend when my GF was working I got dressed in black stockings and a black and checkered red shirt tied at the belly. I made fake cum out of cornstarch, water, yogurt and a bit of salt. I got out two dildos and went online with a sex worker from my city. I took a screen recording of her and recorded myself on the laptop camera. I had in earbuds so I didn't really record any of her audio. I wanted the video as protection from black-mail and also to watch at another time and jerk off. When we met online she was naked with several dildos, I asked her to start small. I put a dildo on a chair and started liking the cum off of it. I bent over on camera while sloppily sucking one of the rubber cocks and shoved the larger one up my asshole. I pig-roasted myself on camera while gagging on fake cum and screaming about what a whore I was. I remembered some great porn lines that I wanted to include so I said "pump those fucking cocks in and out of me" and "I can't believe what a slut I'm being". I ended up riding one of the cocks with fake come all over my face and tits. This is when I cummed. Of course cleaning up and saying good bye are awkward. Anyways, that was November 24th. Last Tuesday my GF called me at work, she sounded a bit weird, she just kept asking me "what's up?" until I said "is something wrong?". She said she felt sick to her stomach, she said she was looking for her resume on the laptop... That's when my blood ran cold.

( there is a lot more but I have to get to bed, comment if you want to see more. Actually I'm going to continue anyway. Bye for now!)