Back In College

I've never told anyone, and many people already know it but I have no idea who they are. In college I was drinking and either passed out or got something slipped into a drink at a party. I woke up with semen all over the bed, all over my hair down there, my boobs, my belly, even my butt cheeks. It was inside me in both places down there. I have no idea how many guys saw me naked, nor how many took turns on me. As I came too I couldn't find all my clothes, guys were sleeping all over the house. I got on a pair of sweat pants, and my own shirt and shoes. My panties were torn and I don't know why but I picked them up and put them in the pocket of the sweat pants. I snuck out.

Guys had obviously had sex with me, a LOT of guys and a lot of sex. I'd only let one boy have sex with me about a year before. As I came to my senses I went and got the plan B and took it, as I wasn't on any kind of birth control, I had no reason to be on anything. I'm married now, I had sex with another guy before my husband and with neither of them can I really relax and let go. I pretend I do and pretend I love sex, but I really don't. My husband took me in my bottom on our wedding night (to get a virgin part of me). He still does it, I let him do what he wants and I will do whatever, but I just can't enjoy it. I always think of the guys faces as I snuck out of that house that morning. I can't help but thinking they all saw me naked and all had sex with me.

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by Anonymous on Dec 21, 2020 at 5:43 PM

You should have gone straight to the police, filed a report, and had the whole house busted before any of them could get away. No telling if they have done this before you, or again after. They need to be brought to justice. They are nothing more than Rapists. And them saying, "We were drunk and did not have any idea what we were doing". BULLSHIT! Charges need to be brought.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Dec 21, 2020 at 9:03 PM

Horrible story! So sorry this happened to you. Yes, you should have gone to the police, but it is VERY common for victims of r**e not to come forward. It is traumatizing and victims are often double guessed. It might be too late now, but I do think you should speak to a therapist about this.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Dec 21, 2020 at 10:06 PM

I am sorry that this happened to you. You should seek therapy for as long as you need it. You did not deserve what happened to you.

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by Anonymous on Dec 24, 2020 at 10:09 AM

Lucky you, I had to ask my brother to set that up for me for me to get that. You can't imagine how uncomfortable I felt asking my pervert brother to get his friends to target me with their ruffe-r**e playing. I had seen them go after another girl and I felt a huge wave of jealousy, envy and lust. I wanted to be next. From that night on I stopped keeping my hand over my drink and started making sure I left my drink unattended as much as I could. The problem was but other women were QUICK to warn me to keep an eye out, take it with me or keep my hand on it. I finally got worked up enough that I approached my brother about it all. After he stopped his denials about that night and shock of my interest, and I got enough over my humiliation and embarrassment, we actually had a good and deep talk about it. He claimed that the woman I saw them target before was also a volunteer. I didn't really believe him but hey, I was volunteering so it wasn't impossible he was telling the truth. I didn't care what they did with me when I was out. I didn't care who all he invited. I didn't want them to know I volunteered so they didn't hold it over my head and embarrass or humiliate me afterwards.

The night, when I felt the slipped drink start kicking in, I felt panic. It was happening. I knew it would be soon but I didn't know the night. Part of me wanted to change my mind and part of me REALLY looked forward to it. I got up and headed out. I made it to my car but I was too messed up to drive. I just sat there until it put me under. I woke up with a splitting headache. I expected the headache but not THAT bad. I was naked in a bed in a room I didn't recognize. Good. there was a bottle of Aspirin and a glass of water on the night stand. Great. I needed to pee and to puke really bad. I search for the bathroom as fast as dared with my headache and nausea. I was more messed up then I expected or wanted. It killed most of my arousal but not all of it. I borrowed a toothbrush after I was done with both ends. My face and hair was a mess and I felt sticky, icky and sore. Like it or not I got what I asked for. I didn't know if I was alone or not. I went back to the room and swallowed the Aspirins. I could not find ANY of my things at all. I looked all over the apartment and discovered I was alone and I couldn't find anything of mine at all. With no choice, I picked out a T-shirt and boxers put them on and started my walk of shame home.

Even though I didn't remember any of the fun parts and the next morning was mostly miserable, it is still my most favorite memory of my sexual past. That T-shirt and boxers are still among my favorite sleepwear

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