Aiming To Please

Throughout my 20's I struggled with increasing gay desires. I dated women but my mind would drift to pleasing men even when making love with them .I fought the desires and di not have gay sex until 2 years ago and now I love it at age 30.


I was 28 and found I could no longer fight my gay urges .I placed an ad on a gay dating site seeking an older masculine man. I found myself deeply attracted to the idea of pleasing an older masculine blue collar type guy discreetly on a regular basis. One man who answered my ad really intrigued me .He was a 56 yr old stocky balding construction worker with a bushy moustache and I found myself masturbating to his photo .I was nervous and excited about meeting as he was very interested in a younger slimmer pleasing type of guy even though I was not experienced .He told me over the phone he would be very patient with me and allow me to learn how to please him.

We agreed to meet at his place one Saturday evening and get it all started .I wore a nice tight pair of jeans and nice dressy shirt .I felt this mounting sense of desire and excitement about finally surrendering to my gay feelings. I got to his hi rise apartment and seeing him in person turned me on even more .John is around 5ft 8 185 with thick strong arms and a barrel chest .I am 6ft 1 about 170 so tall and slim with a tight round little ass and long legs. He looked excited to see me and I made myself at home on his couch as he got me a beer .I lit up a cigarette and smoked seductively as we chatted .He had on a white t shirt and grey sweat pants and I could see a nice bulge in his pants. I was feeling more and more horny as we talked and had a couple beers. I had an erection myself that would not go down .John moved close to me on the couch and gave me a slow lingering kiss as my clean shaven face felt his bushy moustache and tongue probe between my lips. I loved how he kissed me and began kissing him back sensually. We necked awhile then he pulled down his sweatpants and white undies to reveal a stubby fat cut cock around 5 inches long. I loved the look of his sexy cock and began caressing it with my hand .John's cock was hard and I gently stroked it especially around the big mushroom head. He asked me to get on my knees in front of him and I obediently did what he asked. He guided his fat cock into my wet mouth and I began sucking him .My cock stiffened as I gave my first blowjob ever .His cock fit perfectly between my lips and I sucked him a bit harder with more need .I loved sucking him and it felt so complete I did not need anything else sexually at that moment. He was so aroused he began to moan and was soon filling my eager mouth with his wet creamy load .I swallowed it all hungrily and felt thrilled I had satisfied him so easily the first time .I also loved being his cocksucker .Later we went to his bed and necked some more .We were both naked by then and I sucked his cock again given him a second orgasm. He masturbated my slim cut cock until I spurted all over my stomach and after cleaning up we went to sleep in each other's arms .We had breakfast together then I left for home feeling dreamy and satisfied with how it went between us.

Two years later and I reflect on my ongoing pleasing of my man .I see John 2-3x a week to blow him and get fucked nice by that fat cock of his .I stay over every weekend and cook for my man and clean his place .His cock fucks my asshole smoothly and I can take all of him in me without any hurt whatsoever as I am so used to him now in there. I love when he mounts me in his bed from behind and fucks me until he blows his cream wetly inside me. Most of all I love sucking his cock deeply and swallowing his loads as I see myself mainly as his cocksucker .This is all I need sexually to be fulfilled.