Pretty Sick

My wife of many years is a self-confessed control freak, with a background in mental health and social-work. She has always been tolerant of my addiction to total enclosure bondage, and enables me almost unquestioningly, but like all addictions it's never enough...she has shown some interest in pushing my limits, to perhaps 12 hours in every 24, sleep and 'honey-dos' taking up the other 12, but I'm greedy, and really want 23 out of 24, with a break for hygiene, toiletry, nourishment, and exercise. She draws the line at that, sensibly, but has hinted that the sky's the limit if I ever cheat on her....so now I'm tempted to at least fake such a betrayal, in the sick hope that my punishment might become the 23 out of 24...we live in near-isolation, financially secure, neither of us working, and if I sort of disappeared from the world, to be 'produced' a couple of times a year, to fulfil (her) family obligations, there is no real obstacle. So here I am, on the verge of turning a loving relationship into something unloving and evil, in the eyes of most people, and unlikely to resist the temptation to set it in motion. There are more addictions than chem. and alcohol, or gambling, and they can be just as overpowering...welcome comments, positive or negative...