I Play Vrchat To Feel Wanted

I play vrchat to feel like someone wants to have sex with me. My boyfriend and I have been living together for 2 years.... sex is boring. I’m kinky, love pet play, love to be used and my boyfriend loves missionary and playing wow. I wanted a nerd who would feel blessed to have a women to fuck whenever. Instead he isnt interested and is a wholesome non kinky guys. I am completely involved in his life and he is in mine.
I live stream on twitch for a living and my viewers dont know I am not single. He wants to tell everyone since he is not getting jealous. On top of it all... He has now questioned my one safe flirting place. Vrchat.
I have always wanted to erp in vrchat andPretend someone would bend me over the couch and fuck my brains out.
Or fuck on a roof top while people watched. But now my one safe place has been taken he is insecure I am flirting witht men on there... and well I am.... i lap dance and cuddle and have men “touch me” and tell me i feel nice... tell me my voice is cute and that im a bad girl.... i am so anxious and horny and i found a guy on there who added me on snapchat. That was a mistake. My boyfriend found the dms on discord and was just sad. Now i cant even talk or hang out with that guy even though i told my bf he knows im not single...
I am so angry... how could i be so stupid and let him find out
I now add and un add this guy on snapchat while we sit in a world together on vr chat and i touch myself to his messages he sends me.

Do i break up with my boyfriend so i can be free to flirt and fuck people online and irl.... or do i suck it up.... i feel like i would be lonely but also not lonely and would def get fucked more than my pathetic boyfriend fucks me..., i need a man with an actual sex drive.... im depressed, Horny, and lonely... help