Letting Go

Early last year I let go with a repressed desire and tried it out .I discovered I enjoyed being with an older man much more than I ever thought I would. It happened very unexpectedly.

I was 34 then and newly single after my girlfriend broke up with me .I was lonely and hurt and horny as hell. For a month or so I brooded and just felt sorry for myself .One evening I was at the corner store buying cigarettes when this middle aged homely slim bearded fellow asked me for a cigarette .I gave him one as we were just standing outside the store and I lit him up .It was January and quite cold and not totally comfortable standing there. He looked at me carefully and said he had some brandy in his small apartment nearby and would I like some .I never would have said yes to an offer like this before but something in me was so starved for company I nodded and went with him to his place .He lived in an older house and had an apartment upstairs. I took off my parka and sat with him in his small living room .He moved quickly to get the brandy out. I would say he is in his late 50's and looked somewhat older than his age .He is shorter than me and definitely of thinner build with longer hair and scruffy beard and very inquisitive eyes .He poured the brandies and we started sipping them and chatting. He was very curious about me and asked a lot of questions in a friendly way .I opened up to him and told him all about my life and recent break up .He was sympathetic and listened attentively .The brandy gave me a warm glow and the attention he gave me also warmed me up. After the second brandy I felt very relaxed and a bit drunk .He took my hand gently at one point and led me to his bedroom .I was in such a warm relaxed state I went willingly and realized i was getting turned on. He undressed me slowly and guided me onto his bed .He took off his clothes and I noticed he had a bigger cock than me which was hard and circumsized .Seeing his cock erect had an effect on mine and my cut cock stiffened .He lay down beside me and caressed my cock. It felt so good I was soon moaning in pleasure as he stroked me with his hand .He then moved his head down my body and took my cock in his mouth .He proceeded to bob up and down on my cock giving me a deep slow blowjob taking all of my cock easily down his throat .His blowjob made me orgasm intensely and he swallowed all of my cum. I lay back totally spent and feeling a bliss I had never felt before .We chatted intimately then shared a cigarette. The sex had lowered my inhibitions so much that now looking at him I realized he no longer looked so homely to me and in fact I was becoming attracted to him .Eventually we started kissing which got deeper and deeper and more passionate until I felt I was losing all my inhibitions around gay sex .While necking with him I started picturing myself returning the favor and sucking his cock which began stiffening my dick again. He looked excited when I told him I wanted to blow him too .I went down his body and slowly wrapped my lips around his big cock .I found I could take quite a bit of it in if not all and began sucking him tenderly .He moaned as well and I sucked his cock until he was telling me he was going to cum .Knowing he could blow his load in my mouth made me feel lust I had never quite felt before and I sucked him harder feeling the urge to take all his load. His body shook and he shot a big load of his cream into my mouth which I gobbled up hungrily .At that moment I felt I had let go fully and enjoyed every moment of our sex together .This time he lay back with a peaceful look on his face and I realized I had satisfied him. I ended up sleeping with him and receiving another amazing blowjob in the morning before I left.

I have visited Ed many times since and learned how to deepthroat that sexy cock of his and take it fully in my tight round ass .He is my lover now and the sex is always satisfying and deeply pleasureable .Our favorite roleplay is for us to go to the same store we met at and have him light a cigarette outside as we reenact that first time we had sex .It is our little secret.