Curious And Confused

So I have always been a hundred percent straight, only ever dated and fucked women and don't see where this is from but since before the lockdown I been imagining sucking off a young asian guy. I jack off thinking of licking his balls and hearing him moan and beg me to suck his dick. I even want to lick up in his crack and make him explode a hot load. I do work with several young asian men and could maybe make it happen if I get the nerve up.