Failed With Gran.

When I was 16, and walking around with the usual permanent hard on that goes with the full flow of teenage hormones I completely failed to get off with my grandma after whom, I lusted. My fascination with older women stemmed from pornography. The magazine 40-Plus was my go-to wank bible, Annoyingly with hindsight I have come to know that she was actually up for it and it was ME that didn't take the bait.

It had been a long winter afternoon, the 1980's were not an exciting era in middle class south east London, we'd been shopping, had dinner and were watching the clock for bed time when I got an unmistakable teenage erection... You know the sort that just pop up for no damn reason ? Yeah, one of them. She, noticing the erection made no attempt to hide from me that she'd seen it,... She said... "An early night for us maybe ?" and went off upstairs... And you know what ? I DIDN'T realize that she had meant... Same bed.

Nothing happened, nothing ever happened afterwards.

twenty years passed, and while visiting to help with her settling into an accessible bungalow, and after moving a bed in, and now aged 92... She broke the silence and we discussed it... Telling me that at one stage she'd have let me share her bed... We both knew when and why...

Biggest regret ever ?

Well yes.