Unappreciative Spouse

After 25 years of marriage, grown kids a body that looks like I had 4 kids, chubby, huge hanging boobs, I don't even try to shave or trim anymore as my husband wouldn't even notice. I know he cheats and has since the time we got married. I know I'm a chub and not especially pretty and for him, I'm literally a place for him to cum. Mouth, vag, butt, on my boobs, my face he just uses me as his cumdump. I let him, and I don't care anymore, he bought the cow he can use the cow.

It started innocently enough with a boy who lives in the neighborhood. He's young, never had sex, I was the first woman he's seen naked in the flesh and not online. Let me say that I don't let him have sex with me. But he rubs me all over, he gets naked and he strokes my boobs till they feel all tingly again, then I sit up in the bed, where usually my husband has just fucked me and there is a pool of his cum wetting the bed, it leaks out of me as I can't hold it in after 4 kids anymore. I sit up, back against the pillows, and Don lays across and nurses on my big boobs. He lightly strokes and lightly sucks on my dark brown nipples. I've let him feel my butt, even stick a finger in there, and he's used his fingers in my vag. While he suckles on me I lightly rake my finger nails along his huge balls, and long, big cock. He gets hard and I used my hand on him.

Lately he's asked for me to spread out for him so he can shoot on my pubic hair, and usually he puts the head between my lips down there and shoots. I use my hand to hold him back from penetrating me. I want to let him have sex so bad. He's offered to lick me even with my husbands remains leaking out of me. I'd LOVE to see him do that, but I know he'll want to have sex if he does it. I'm thinking of giving him a BJ, or maybe letting him in my butt. I really love what we have right now, it's so nice, and gentle. He's young and he takes direction so well. My husband just tells me to "spread 'em" or "Roll over baby" or the ever popular "you have a mouth so use it".