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When I Was A Kid
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Straight Female / 23
I Did It Out Of Kindness
It wasn't until I was into my teens that I remember getting along really well with my uncle from my mom's side. He was blind and basically lived alone, so he never would say no when I decided to visit. Probably the reason I liked doing this was he didn't treat me like some kid and was always honest with me about life, so I was always honest with him. So if I ever had to rant about something, or just get advice my parents wouldn't dare talk about, he was the one I went to. He's actually the big reason got over my own insecurities.
But more on him. He's been blind for most of life. Had a massive brain tumor that got cut out while he was a kid, which pretty much ruined most of his life. He would tell me all sorts of stories over how his teen years were. But the one thing that always stuck was how lonely he always sounded.
During one of those talks, he went in about how he's never really had a relationship or had more than a kiss, and just how depressing things can get. I was like 14 when this was happening and it broke my heart, especially with how much I go to him over what was honestly petty high school drama, but he never failed me there.
He didn't ask for this, I offered, I won't deny that.
I basically told him it would be unfair for him to go on without knowing what it's like, and I basically told him I'll have sex with him.
This wasn't some need for lust. Hell, it wasn't all pity. In some way in my heart, I really felt he needed this from the kindness of my heart. It took some convincing and what means of persuasion I had. In some way, this was a guiltless opportunity to practice sex.
And that's how it happened, I made the first move, trying to work him into it before just going all, or I guess really he went in? It wasn't my first but it was still awkward to guide for once, and I just felt alot of the time me just trying to adjust to him since, well, size difference. And probably something I never expected, that sudden warm feel inside when its done. Mistakes happen when you don't plan for things.
Long and short of it but off and on, we had sex and got more confident in it, with protection of course! And well, it never really changed much of our usual relationship, it made boy advice actually easier. It was still a little wierd but idk. After the first time it was less about him and more just me excusing to get better at sex without fooling around at school. But really, it all pretty much ended when I was 16 and got into a serious relationship.
I obviously still see and talk to my uncle as you would expect anybody else in the family, and really? We don't talk about what happened aside from how I'm too kind to him. It still hurts though to see him all alone, but I understand thats not something I can ever fill the void of.
But more on him. He's been blind for most of life. Had a massive brain tumor that got cut out while he was a kid, which pretty much ruined most of his life. He would tell me all sorts of stories over how his teen years were. But the one thing that always stuck was how lonely he always sounded.
During one of those talks, he went in about how he's never really had a relationship or had more than a kiss, and just how depressing things can get. I was like 14 when this was happening and it broke my heart, especially with how much I go to him over what was honestly petty high school drama, but he never failed me there.
He didn't ask for this, I offered, I won't deny that.
I basically told him it would be unfair for him to go on without knowing what it's like, and I basically told him I'll have sex with him.
This wasn't some need for lust. Hell, it wasn't all pity. In some way in my heart, I really felt he needed this from the kindness of my heart. It took some convincing and what means of persuasion I had. In some way, this was a guiltless opportunity to practice sex.
And that's how it happened, I made the first move, trying to work him into it before just going all, or I guess really he went in? It wasn't my first but it was still awkward to guide for once, and I just felt alot of the time me just trying to adjust to him since, well, size difference. And probably something I never expected, that sudden warm feel inside when its done. Mistakes happen when you don't plan for things.
Long and short of it but off and on, we had sex and got more confident in it, with protection of course! And well, it never really changed much of our usual relationship, it made boy advice actually easier. It was still a little wierd but idk. After the first time it was less about him and more just me excusing to get better at sex without fooling around at school. But really, it all pretty much ended when I was 16 and got into a serious relationship.
I obviously still see and talk to my uncle as you would expect anybody else in the family, and really? We don't talk about what happened aside from how I'm too kind to him. It still hurts though to see him all alone, but I understand thats not something I can ever fill the void of.
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