Video Arcade Experience

I have been to this XXX arcade numerous times. The first time I went, I was so scared of what would happen if someone walked in on me while stroking my cock but the excitement of being watched made me cum fast and hard. I would sometimes go twice in a day just to get the poison out. One day a guy walked in slowly and started whispering to me that the video was really hot. I was watching this girl getting banged really hard. He was asking if the video turned me on, it really did. He pulled out his cock and started stroking it while watching my hard cock. I came really fast and he left shortly after that. One afternoon, I went in and was stroking slowly and this guy came in. I let him watch and he whispered "Can you cum in my mouth?" I said sure but held my hand over my cock so I would just shoot it into his mouth. He licked up the cum from my fingers as the rest came out. I came really hard and felt a rush come over me.
Fast forward a few years later, I returned to the arcade and brought condoms with me hoping to build up enough nerve to try something more. This guy walked in and asked if he could stroke his cock with me, I said sure. His cock was thick. I watched him stroke his meaty cock. He asked if I wanted to suck his dick and I nervously said yes but with a condom on. I handed him one and he slipped it over his meaty cock and I went down and took his cock in my mouth. It was huge and warm as I worked on it. He then put his hand on the back of my head and pushed his cock down my throat. I took the whole thing as he fucked my mouth and throat. The condom was too tight on his cock so I took off the condom and started to stroke his cock and mine at the same time. He then started to rub his dick under my balls as I stroked my cock. I came all over his dick and balls. I really wanted that thick cock up my ass and I think about the experience and what it would have felt like if he gave me a good pounding.
These days, while I am in the shower I fantasize his cock fucking me. I sometimes soap up one of my soap bottles that is a good size and slowly work it up my ass. Ive had dildos that I got rid of because I don't want my wife to find them, One of them was huge and I fantasize being fucked by two guys at the same time. I know I would never do it but playing with them makes me feel so dirty!