Kissing Joey Potter

When I was 15 I was obsessed with Dawson's Creek. That was also the time when I came to the realization that I was a lesbian. From the age of five I knew I was different from most girls. When I used to play with other girls I would get butterflies in my stomach. I would love the feeling. I'd even have a faint tingling in my vagina. By the time I was 15 I still hadn't kissed a girl but I wanted to so badly.

Sally was a new girl in school. She sat next to me in study hall and in art class. She was so beautiful. She was a dead ringer for Joey Potter on Dawson's Creek, played by Katie Holmes. I asked her...
"Did anyone ever tell you that you look like Joey from Dawson's Creek?"

"Ha! Yeah, I get that a lot."

"You really do."

"I didn't know who she was until I saw the show. Now I'm hooked!"

"Me too! I love it!"

"Dawson or Pacey?"

I thought to myself neither. I'm in love with Joey.
I answered, "I'd have to say Dawson."

"Me too!" Sally said.

"Hey, would you like to come over and watch it with me?"

Sally said "I'd love to!"

I was so excited to have her come over my house. I have some friends but none of them ever come over. I'm not sure why. Everytime I invite someone, they say they're coming but then they back out. Maybe they could sense I'm a lesbian and they wouldn't want to catch my cooties.

When Sally arrived we hung out in the back yard and as it was getting dark we went inside. My mom ordered us some pizza. We ate our pizza as we talked about Dawson's Creek. Robin told me about her old school. She said she misses it a little but was happy to have come to our school and meet me! My heart felt like it was going to beat out of my chest!

"C'mon! It's going to start soon!" I said excitedly.

We were up in my room laying on my bed on our stomachs watching Dawson and the gang.

"I love when Joey crawls into Dawson's window." I sighed.

Sally got up to look out my window. She then ran out of my room and said "I'll be right back!"

"Huh? Where you going? The bathroom is on the left!" I yelled.

A couple minutes later there was a knock on my window. I opened it and Robin came crawling through!

"I climbed up you trellis!"

"Oh my God, you're so crazy! I love it!"

"I'm going to have to climb up it more often!"

"Yes, Please!"

Sally then got serious. "Hey, can I ask you something?"

"Yeah sure."

"What's the deal with that Dina chick?"

"Dina Mags?"

"Yeah."

"What about her?"

"Why is she such a bitch?"

"We used to be friends but she stopped coming around."

"Yeah she told me. She heard you ask me to come over."

"She told you? What did she say?"
As I waited for Sally to answer I started to get a sick feeling wondering what Dina said to her.

"She told me some stupid shit. She told me that you and your family are dirty and that your house was disgusting. But being here with you, in your beautiful house I confirmed she was full of shit."

"But you still came even though she said all those things about me and my house?"

"Of course! I like you! I wasn't going to take her word for it."

After she said that the sick feeling went away the butterflies started. The butterflies and the tingling.

"She did say one other thing."

Oh no, sick feeling again.

"What?" I asked as I turned around to look at the wall. I was waiting for it.

"She said that you told her you loved her and tried to kiss her. She said you're a lesbian. Actually the word she used was dyke."

I was quiet as I leaned my forehead against the wall. I didn't want her to see me cry.

"Ok thanks. Thanks for coming. See ya." I cried as my voice cracked.

I then felt her right next to me. She put her arm around me and tried to brush my hair aside to try and see my face.

"Hey Ter, it's ok."

"Yeah sure. I'm fine. You don't have to stay."

"But I want to stay."

"Really? Even after what Dina said?"

"Fuck Dina! She could drop dead!"

I looked at her and she could see my tears. Sally took my face in her hands. She gently brushed my hair out of my face and wiped my tear drops.

"Hey, she's not worth crying about."

"I don't care about what she said. I care that she said it to you. I really like you and she tried to ruin it."

"Yeah. She tried, but she didn't succeed. You see, I like you too. I wasn't going to listen to that skank. I knew what she was trying to do."

I looked into her eyes and I could see she was telling the truth. I felt like I could see into her soul. I started to feel those butterflies again. They were going crazy.

Sally hugged me. I hugged her back. As we stopped hugging, as we were pulling apart our cheeks brushed each other. We stopped as our lips were so close. Sally gently rubbed her nose on mine. She caressed my lips with her lips. I could feel her breath. My heart was beating so fast, the butterflies were in full fury. Sally then lightly licked my lips. My breath was shaky. My throat was dry. I couldn't believe this was happening. She took a hold of my face, tilted her head and slid tongue into my mouth. Her lips and tongue were so soft. I tried to get as much of her tongue and her lips. We held each other as we kissed passionately. I didn't ever want this to end. I never wanted her to leave.

We stopped kissing and realized we missed the rest of Dawson's Creek. We laughed as the credits started to roll.

"Oh well. I guess we missed it." Sally said.

"That's ok! It's recording!"

We kissed some more and then I told her…

"Sal, this is my first time I kissed anybody. I'm so happy it was with you!"

"I can't say this is my first kiss but I'm happy that I was your first and I love kissing you! For someone that has never kissed before, you really are a great kisser!"

I then grabbed her face and continued to kiss her.

"Ter, I have to go. I'll see you at school tomorrow."

"Yeah, ok. So are we girlfriends?"

"I would like to think so."

"Cause if you just want to keep it hush hush, I'd understand."

"So let me understand, if we are keeping it "hush hush", I can't hold your hand or steal a kiss between classes, or tell you that I love you? If that's the case then NO! I don't want to keep it hush hush. I want everyone to know!"

I threw my arms around her neck and hugged her so tight. We kissed a little more, then Robin opened the window and climbed out Joey style.