Therapy Found This Memory

I've been going to therapy as of late. I've been very confused about my sexuality. I've been bi since Jr high. I feel now that being bi is confusing. I want to settle down but I don't know who I want to settle down with, a guy or a gal.

With my therapist trying to get to the bottom of my issues she suggested hypnosis. She said you'd be surprised how far back you could conjure up memories from. After a few hypnosis sessions she had me watch some of the videos. She said she believes we may have found out why I am attracted to women. There I was laying there on the screen with my eyes closed. I was talking like I was a little girl again. She asked me how old I was and I said 4 and a half. I was telling her I like riding my bike and playing with my Barbies. I then told her that Mom and Dad go out all the time and Amanda would come over and babysit me. In my little girl voice I said she was a cheerleader in highschool and she was so beautiful. We watched movies and made popcorn and then she would give me a bath. She would wash me and and soap me up. Amanda would tell me that she needed to make sure that my vagina was clean. She would whisper in my ear and asked me if it felt good when she washed my vagina. I told her it felt very good. She even cleaned inside with her finger. I like that I said. She then said that my hiney hole needs to be cleaned too. She slid her hand underneath me and rubbed my butthole and cleaned inside with her finger. On the video the therapist voice asked me if this was the only time. I said no. It happens every Friday and Saturday. I told her she kissed me in both places too. When she would dry me off on my bed she would say she wanted to see how clean my vagina was. Amanda would open my legs and she would kiss my vagina. She would even check inside with her tongue. It feels incredible. Amanda did it for a little while then she would make sure my butthole was clean. After she was done she would get undressed and asked me to check if she was clean too. I really like checking her. She is clean and she tastes very good. She likes the way I check because she tells me how much she loves it and how it feels so good. She tells me she is coming but coming where I don't know what she means.

After she stopped the tape it all came flooding back to me. I remember when it started and that it went on for years. Amanda would also bring her gorgeous boyfriend Ben over and we would all take a bath together. They would both clean me and check me. Me and Amanda would clean Ben's pee-pee. I would kiss it and put it in my mouth. Amanda put it in her vagina. I loved watching them do that. We would lay in my bed naked kissing and touching and licking each other. I remembered the time he put his pee-pee inside me. It hurt so much at first but Amanda made sure he didn't shove it all the way in. I really liked it when he would cum on me. Amanda would lick it all off of me.

Now it all made sense. But I'm still confused if I should be with a man or a woman. Hopefully I will figure it out soon.