Secrets

This happened a long time ago. When I was young, about thirty, was divorced and had two kids, a boy and a girl. I had started having a secret lesbian love affair with another divorced woman who was five years older than me.
This went on for three years, and I will admit that I was always very nervous that someone would find out. I felt very surprised with myself for doing this, not realizing that I had lesbian tendencies, although in school I do remember feeling some sense of attraction toward other girls. At the time of my first experience I remember very distinctly thinking how I was actually sucking on another woman’s breasts and nipples and licking her c**t – which was the term we used in those days, and just how daring and different this seemed for me at the time. Which of course it was. Yet, I found it exciting and thoroughly enjoyed this and found it to be so pleasurable.
My friend and lover and I finally broke up because she kept insisting that I should just tell my kids about us and that we should live openly together. Back in those days such things were not quite so openly accepted and I was very reluctant and even fearful about doing something like that. Of course I refused and our affair ended.
Since then, over the years, I have had several brief affairs with other women, but it was just never the same. And of course my kids, now grown and married, and I have grandkids, have no idea nor does anyone else that I have these secret lesbian tendencies and desires which I have continue to enjoy.