I Was My Sons First

So yea. As the title implies, I was my sons first. I've had bad experiences with men and he was there at the right time. He is now 22 years ago and for a long time now he has been my only lover and he refuses to move out because of this. I guess I should feel guilty over this, but the feeeling of looking him in the eyes while having his hard cock in my mouth or hearing him call me "mom" while inside me t***ps every other feeling I have about it.