Ashamed

My confession is to alleviate my shame being such a degenerate beast.
I have recurring dreams of abusing my inexperienced young gf and making her submit to a group of older friends of my father.
This small group of men has been me and my sisters uncles since we were babies. Mostly 50ish men with large bellies and that male confidence that is so exciting to a girl or to anyone seeking a virile stud.
So in my daydreams I go into one of the barns for something and come across three of daddy's friends. They have no trousers on and their large slack penises are swinging between their legs and topping big, dark, loooong hanging almost purple ball sacks.
I am on my knees in a second and slobbering over those sweaty, musky, stinky sacks.
My c**t is on fire and running juice down my thighs as I push my face between the first uncle's legs and breath deep his stink and swallow his hairy sack to the best of my ability.
The rest of the daydream is hazy but involves pussy mouth and anal stuffing.
I am a quivering mass of cum soaked slut when they are done.
Last thing I hear is the men laughing at what a c**t I am and what a dirty whore likes so much filthy old man spermloads.