Daughter Shocker

I just read the confession from the mom who witnessed her son and daughter fucking in their living room. Mom says she doesn't know how to confront them so it moved me to write about what happened to me because I know exactly how she feels even though she is probably denying it to herself.

My straight A- student, volleyball playing, cheer team daughter is 12. She often has neighborhood kids over playing pool in our basement. I'd started noticing that one boy seemed to always be the last to leave. Suspicious, I snuck outside after dark and after all the other kids had left to see if anything was happening. My intent was to bust their ass if I caught them doing anything. I'd always been overly protective in that way.

I was nervous enough in hoping that no neighbors would catch me looking in my own window but also because I didn't want to see them doing anything knowing that I'd be pissed. The 1st time I peeked, nothing was happening and they were just cleaning up and putting stuff away. The 2nd time, I started shaking. They were sitting on the couch. Her jean shorts were pulled down to almost her knees. Her head was laid on the back of the couch. His hand was inside her panties and he was clearly rubbing her pussy. I couldn't specifically tell if his finger was inside her or he was only sliding up and down her slit but it was clear that she wasn't stopping him and that she appeared to be wanting it badly.

My instinct was to march down those stairs and bust some ass. But, I couldn't take my eyes off her face. I could tell she was loving it and knew he wasn't hurting her. While constantly looking over my shoulders to make sure no one could spot me, I started wondering if they were going to do more. Instead of busting them up, I started realizing it was making me horny and I was quietly cheering them on and torn because I wanted them to do more. I wanted those panties to come completely off so that I could see her pussy and see fully what he was doing to her. I wanted her to have an orgasm so I could see her reaction. I wanted her hand to reach over to his crotch.

In reality, what happened was that she apparently thought better of it and was probably worried about being caught since she thought I was just upstairs and just a few steps away from them - instead of knowing I was outside watching it all. She must have told him that was enough and he took his hand away and she straightened her panties and pulled up her shorts. There was no kissing. It was relatively mechanical sex. Something I didn't know my daughter needed or was ready for.

Since then, I have found myself masturbating many, many times with those images in my head. Usually, I embellish on what happened and fantasize about the natural next steps for them. I imagine that her panties came completely off and she put her foot way up on the couch so that her thin thighs were spread wide open to give me a better view and so that I could see his fingers dashing in and out of her young gash.

I stroke myself while I think that they start kissing with their tongues flashing in and out of their mouths. As they do so, he starts to pull off her t-shirt and expose her tiny chest. She doesn't have much, but seeing her nipples exposed would be another turn on.

I want to see how much she is willing to do if he pulls out his cock. Will this 7th grade girl that I thought I knew wrap her fingers around it willingly? Will she act like she's already done it before and will it be obvious that this isn't her first time? Is she anxious to put it near her mouth and does she want to suck on it as it seems like all her little friends are already doing? Will he stand up in front of her and will she open her mouth for it?

Now that I've seen what I've seen, all kinds of things run through my mind. When they're having sleepovers, do all her friends and she talk about things they wish they were doing and admit the sexual things they've done? Do they get turned on and start kissing and practicing on each other?

I know that young girls seem way hornier these days, and after witnessing her recent fingering session I know that even the really "good girls" want it and they want it early.
The worst thing for me is that I now know that I'm not the same overly protective dad anymore and I won't be doing anything to stop her. Twice I've peeked into that basement since their first session and both times have come away disappointed because she isn't getting naked for him and isn't doing anything to him and he isn't giving her more of what she enjoyed. I'm preoccupied with hoping that he - or some other boy or man - will some night be down there and giving me another private show unknowingly.

Until then, I'll keep emptying myself with memories of what might have been her first foray into sex. Her jean shorts pulled down and a horny young boy making her wet and showing her how good it can feel. I don't always feel good about myself but know that I have little control over how horny it makes me feel to want to see her enjoy herself.