Oops, I Cheated Again And Now He Wants Me To

My first boyfriend was abusive but I was too stupid to dump him. He'd cheat on me and let his friends mess with me and I'd put up with it more times than not. I'd break up with him and when he got horny enough he'd call and somehow he'd get me to come over to have sex.

Feeling low, I'd start dating any guy that wanted me back. When a married coworker started hitting on me I hit on him right back. I'm not sure how or why but I started messing around with several coworkers, single and married. Sex was getting better but my spirit was really depressed and self destructive.

Through a friend I met a nice guy. He was instantly really attracted to me. I liked him back but when he made his move, I was too sore from my last sex, so I stopped that part. He took it as that I was a virgin. I wasn't but I didn't want to ruin his sweet thoughts of me. We started dating more. I was still having sex with my coworkers and sometimes with my ex. Anyways, the nice guy surprised me by proposing to me. I accepted.

I meant to stop all the side sex and be true to my fiancé, but somehow all the guys wanted sex more often and the sex got more fun for me. When more guys hit on me I let them and I was having more sex while engaged then before. I knew I should feel terrible, but for the first time, I was feeling guilt free after sex and I had never felt that way before.

I cut everyone off a month before my wedding so I could feel tighter for my husband. We had a great wedding and honeymoon. We came home and I was ready to be normal and monogamous. That didn't last long. First they married guys at work got to me. I was able to keep it limited to them for a while but eventually I was with most of the guys I was with before our wedding.

I knew what I was doing was wrong but I just couldn't say 'No' to the guys. I was very relieved when my husband got a job out of town and I had an excuse to cut them all off and move with him. I have not always been perfect but I'm still in love with my husband.

My new problem is my husband has gotten into the 'hotwife' and 'cuckold' porn stuff. He wants us to try that. I'm afraid to go back down that road again or him finding out about my past but I feel like I owe him. I'm not sure what to do

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Mar 22, 2021 at 11:45 PM

Now it's high time you change your wild and helplessly compulsive carnal habits.
As to your husband ,just put your foot down and ask him point blank if he married you only to fulfill his sick fantasy( sick since it's at your cost) and if that is the case then he could have just been a lover and used you as a fantasy wife while satisfying his masochistic fantasy. No good husband should use his wife thus.
There are people who resort to this and I have nothing against them but just think,how many husbands in this world indulge in this ? Why does one marry? To share his wife or role play?Marriage has a definite sanctity.
Thogh you have enjoyed your butterfly sexual life earlier, you are now AFRAID- implying that you want to now settle down with one man.
It's your decision but I feel you should not relent and tell him to be a submissive man and you want to be the dominatrix.
If he rejects, you get your problem solved and if he gives in, kick his ass for treating you like a slut.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Mar 23, 2021 at 12:40 AM

Everyone's entitled to their opinions but I can tell you that I love having a hot wife, a woman on my arm who plenty of other men pine for and desire.
In the past we did a very little bit of sharing and I do find it exciting to watch her sucking cock, mine or a very rare other one.
Not sure where the part about telling your husband to be a submissive and you're gonna be a dominatrix comes from.
Seems to me you are a natural sub and it's up to your husband to keep you in line to his satisfaction. If that means you do slutty things for him, then that's that. If it means he expects you to be absolutely hands off to other men, then that's that.
Happiness comes when you are both on the same page, so capital C - Communication is essential between you and hubby. Good luck and great sex!

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Mar 23, 2021 at 5:58 AM

First off Clair your a great wife, I've shared my wife with 7 different men we like having threesomes , I very much enjoy my wife being a slut with another guy and myself. She likes the attention from both of us and she doesn't my Ind being called a slut while in bed with us 2 guys.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Mar 23, 2021 at 6:17 PM

Poor guy married a whore unbeknownst to him. Just leave him and be a single whore, poor poor guy.

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Anonymous

by Anonymous on Mar 30, 2021 at 1:13 AM

If you were my wife I’d be in heaven. I’ve begged my wife to be naughty. But if she was or has been she’d never admit it. Which sucks. I get so turned on thinking about other men lusting after her.

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