An Accident, A Stupid Decision, A Lifetime Of Guilt

The club at the lake had it's annual New Year's Eve party. My parents gave me permission to go with some friends. Originally four of us would go in one car, but when my date came to pick me up he was alone. We were in his mother's car, my first car date that my parents didn't know about.

On the way, driving along the shore the hood flew up, blocking his view and we crashed against a tree. That night we had taken a shortcut, using the old road. He was hurt and so was I, no one wore seat belts in those days. I had a cut on my forehead and a very soar shoulder where I hit the dash. He had a broken ankle. and internal injuries from hitting the steering column. No one came.

He told me he was going to die, and before he died he wanted to see a girl's sex. I reached under my dress and pulled my panties off and showed him my very naked sex. He touched me, fingered me and took his dick out of his pants and I grabbed it, sucked it, he got hard and I lowered myself on his dick until it disappeared inside of me. There wasn't any fucking, but he came inside of me.

We laid there all night. When we didn't return from the date, and we never showed at the club search party was sent out, the fear was that we had gone into the lake and drowned. It wasn't until the afternoon that someone suggested scouting the old road. By the time we were found my date was dead, I thought he was asleep. He bled to death internally. My injuries were more superficial but painful.

No one until this day knows that I gave up my virginity that night. Over the years I told myself at least he didn't die a virgin, but I don't feel that way now. I was 14, I could have been knocked up and my life ruined. That's what gives me cold sweats at night. I feel guilty about giving in that night.