New Discovery

Me and my husband are sperated. We have been going to couple counseling.
I found myself in hormone therapy on meds estrogen shots I was a mess. I hated my husband and prior to this new medication therapy to prevent ovarian cyst mainly we had a great love life.
John my husband had a large collection of porn I discovered old playboy erotic storyline books. I chuckled when I found it. I know he has a few pictures and home porns on his phone. It never bothered me a day of my life. In fact I enjoy porn and reading erotica myself.
Over the first three months me Bolton and Derek got close watching movies having family night.
I'm a controlling person I just like to know what my family is up to.
I know Derek looks up a lot of i****t fetish and fantasy as well as legit information on it. I know Bolton spy's on me from time to time. I've caught both derek and Bolton masterbating a time or two each. Infact I have got to the point I enjoy catching them.
Medication has me going haywire I'm aroused all of the time I am literally burning hot wet pussy all day long I wear a bullet with remote control. I'm constantly getting sexual gratification. At work on lunch even playing uno and having family night.
I'm either sexually aroused or I'm irritated and annoyed.
I have occasionally let a random younger man take me and my body. Letting them have sex with me in my car or a motel room a few times in public. I don't even know if these younger men are even eighteen.
All I know is most of the time they are not gentle and over eager no experience and it doesn't last long. I do normally cum orgasming once or twice but it's when I close my eyes and picture either my just turned sixteen year old son derek or my sixteen year old about to turn seventeen son Bolton.
I'm sexually attracted to both of my son's.
I know both are hung g*fted in that area one being about eight inches and thick one being nine or ten and decent on girth. One is a shy nerdy smart kid already having a scholarship or two.
The other athletic with good grades.
Both tall handsome one a little more stong and athletic but both having sexy muscular bodies.
The first six months has gone by at the next point.
Derek and Bolton both let me catch them masterbating. Both boys would find time to press into me with an erection letting it jab into my thigh belly lower back. It was the time derek and I put away dishes my pussy was burning throbbing hot sticky and dripping wet. He bent over pinning me between him and the counter. Through his shorts and through my comfy clothes I get it press into my pussy. I started throbbing and my knees got weak.
I went up to my room and yes I cracked my door and let him catch and watch me masterbating.
Literally me and John have a huge fight through out a counseling session the next day I'm just being a spicy bitch to him. But it's turning me on he could of fucked me bent over Lorena couch with our therapist watching. But no he pursues and breaks down everything I say. I'm literally trying not to masterbate infront of them both.
It's month seven that night I got home I wore a little black dress thigh highs wedges trying to turn john on as much as I'm always turned on.
I walk in and I hear my son and his girlfriend fucking I know what it was I'm not dumb or naive. As well I do but my son's condoms and do allow them intimacy with there girlfriend.
I'm sitting on the couch rubbing my cult to her moaning I have always gotten aroused hearing another couple be sexually intimate. I don't get off on watching but I do enjoy being watched. Derek catching me with my fingers on the button.
I keep going not stopping I'm to close to a massive orgasm.
Derek pulled out his penis eight inches of young solid hard cock feet away from me. My legs make a diamond heels pressed together pinching and squeezing my nipples hips rolling.
Derek shooting his nut jizzing all over my black dress on the stomach area. I get done cumming hard legs trembling hands shaking.
I sat up and Derek put his dick right infront of my mouth. I just reacted I swallowed my son's dick down to his firm nuts. I sucked my son's dick until his fat long young dick blew a load in my mouth. Salty bitter like coffee was made with hot dog juice mixed with black licorice and fruit but I enjoyed every drop.
Derek said there almost done. I was not I really needed sex my body throbbing head spinning I took Derek to my room.
I'm thirty eight almost thirty nine at the time.
My dress on nylons and wedges I sit on Derek lap dick out penis in hand guided into my needing pussy. I don't put a condom on him nothing I just insert all eight thick inches into my body and ride Derek reverse cowgirl. His hands finding my breast and I put one on my clit. He is clumsy but he catches on and learning quickly.
I have him rubbing my clit and massaging my nipples through my bra and dress.
One handed he unhooked my bra and had my breasts in his fingers I'm impressed. I'm four orgasms in grinding legs open he is buried deep inside of me. I feel guilty and wrong but so much pleasure. It feels dirty wrong nasty forbidden and that feels incredible.
Then I explode most massive orgasm I've ever had. Nothing changed not the rhythm or pattern stroke nothing. Derek says teach me to fuck like a man mom. It when he whispered mom and his hit breath reached the back of my neck.
Derek finished inside of me I felt him pump his cum into me and it felt incredible.
Bolton had walked his girlfriend out she left. We talked as a mother and two son's. I explained my situation. I explained my aroused state. I explained what happened between me and Derek then after Bolton felt left out and so I took a shower. Me and Bolton as well made love it lasted longer and yet was not as good. Over the next three months I taught my boys how to finger a girl how to eat pussy they are both amazing at it. They are way more experienced sexually then when we started learning from each other.
Surprised to find Derek is the rough confident hard core lover of the two Bolton is passionate love maker. Both are explorers and adventurous one is forceful and the other soft.
Several nights a week I had sex with Derek or Bolton. Some nights both boys got it.
This went on until one day john who is well endowed him self bent me over and fucked me on my car then in the back seat of my car. I started a date night Wednesdays and Fridays date night.
Monday Derek Tuesday Bolton wensday john Thursday Derek and Bolton Friday john Saturday Bolton Sunday Derek and or Bolton sometimes.
I have more sex then I need including the occasional random younger man on the side.
I don't deserve a man like John my husband. If he knew our son's some of there friends and random men have fucked me he would be crushed.
Before the estrogen hormones birth control I was fine me and him my husband. Now I crave young men it's like a needing. I feel like a teen girl out of control I'm so pathetic