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I never really grew much as a boy. I was always short and thin, I have waist that is smaller than my chest and hips. I have a very feminine body and butt. The most humiliating was that my penis is very small. Only the width of my forefinger and about 2 and a half inches long. I had two girls play with it and basically laughed at it and told the other girls in school about it too. They told the boys and I was always alone.

I had my first sex as an unwilling participant when a jock and I were alone in the locker room after school. When he came over to my locker I knew it was trouble, I guess I really knew what was going to happen. I was 16 and we were both naked, he pulled me to him, and reached behind me to grab my butt and one hand was squeezing my nipple so he could suck on it. He took my hand and said simply "Dont' tell anyone or I'll beat the shit out of you". With that I got fucked, bent over in the shower. I didn't want it, but I sort of knew that I'd never had a heterosexual relationship with a girl, I just took it. I think even then, even though I didn't want it this is what I was going to have as a sex life. he did take his time in easing it in me, and once his full 7" was inside me he started slow but only after about 5 minutes he was pumping like crazy and then rammed it into me. Right before he came he reached around and was playing with my little cock. He kept holding his cock in me all the way in, and using his hand on me, and I shot off. He then pulled out of me and told me to get soap and wash him off. I did it.

He was my first boyfriend, though not in front of anyone, he'd sneak over to my house, take me out in his car and I'd suck him off or he'd fuck me somewhere. Mostly we kept staying at school late. I really didn't mind it after I got resolved. He's out of the picture now, I was outwardly gay, then started crossdressing, and am now in transition. I have A cup boobs, my clit is even smaller and my very "out" boyfriend likes it. I want to continue and get surgery he doesn't want me to. So I'm waiting. But eventually I'd like to get fully transitioned and get the bottom surgery and be a full woman.

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by Anonymous on Mar 30, 2021 at 5:43 AM

So you're saying that you decided to call yourself a woman because you have a small penis and a thin body?
You are not right in the head. This is evident from the humiliating experiences you've had. Girls laughing at you and the guy r****g you. Rejection as well as the horrific r**e has given you trauma. Further, you actually had an orgasm from being threatened. This is not uncommon because many victims of r**e do orgasm and it DOES NOT mean that they enjoyed it.
These are the only reasons that you are doubting your own biological sex and not accepting yourself for who you actually are, i.e., a boy. My only advice is to keep yourself away from these abusive people and try to form relationships with people who care about you. I hope you get proper treatment and stop doubting yourself.

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