Wedding Sex

Despite what the title says, I was not a virgin on my wedding night. My husband doesn't know that. He was, thankfully, but I wasn't. We met at 20, married at 23. He wanted to wait until we were married. I did too, at first but as time went by I began to crave sex. He ignored my hints. I went away with my family to visit relatives about a year before we wed. I was friendly with my cousins and their friends, met a lot of people and a guy sparked my interest. My mom made sure everyone knew I was engaged.

This guy though kept showing me attention, a few times when we were alone he kissed me, touched me, my craving for sex became overwhelming. I tried masturbating and it dulled the edge but didn't really help. I 100 percent didn't want to cheat, didn't want to lose my virginity to another man but too much time together, time away from Brad and too much alcohol and we had a passionate make out session, he made me cum by rubbing me through my pants so many times I lost count and I sucked a cock for the first time. Tasted and swallowed cum to for the first time. For a week, when we could we'd make out, he'd rub me to an orgasm and I'd suck him off. We had to be careful and sneak around. My cousin knew but actually helped and encouraged me to have fun.

A week before we were due to head home, my mom broke her leg and we stayed while the rest of the family went home. I was there a month. Brad and I talked a lot, we missed each other but the other guy was there, and we were always alone now. And I discovered how much I love giving blow jobs and swallowing cum and cumming myself and one night I stayed over. I didn't plan it, tried to resist the urge but once he talked me into letting him eat me out and my pants were off it was inevitable that he would fuck me and he did. He was just supposed to rub my clit with his dick, then the ol' just the tip thing and he slid in surprisingly easy. No blood, no real pain, just a little discomfort and then pure pleasure. WE fucked constantly the rest of the time I was there. he argues that we'd already fucked what difference did it make if we continued and yeah we did.

I hated leaving, wanted to stay with him, upend my whole life, was talked out of it by my cousin and by him and reluctantly went home for a non sex until marriage relationship. Unfortunately I just couldn't go back to a celibate life. I had sex with a couple of dozen guys over the months leading up to our wedding. Guys from work, guys I met at bars, on line whatever. I just needed the sex and got it. I was lucky I was on the pill for regulation reasons and that I never caught anything.

I fucked a friend from work a week before the wedding for one last fling, he enjoyed it as we'd been fucking for awhile. Ten years later it's ancient history, I never see the people I'd had sex with and prob never will. Brad doesn't know them at all and officially I was a virgin bride.

Back then I read that women in some counties who have to be virgins on their wedding night but aren't will put a small piece of liver in their pussy just before their first married sex because it bursts and simulates virginal blood. At first I though it was gross but that night, just before bed I stuffed a piece into my pussy as far up as I could and then faked pain and discomfort when we finally fucked. He'd never fucked anyone so he didn't know the difference. He made a big deal about the blood and how much it hurt and was very proud of himself. I faked inexperience for a while before finally coming out of my shell to suck him off, a lot and ride his dick and all that I had learned with an experienced man before.

So, I was an engaged virgin, lost it to a different guy, fucked a ton of guys, then faked being a virgin on my wedding night and it all worked out for the best. I am happy I married Brad, we are perfect together, I got my need for sex with others out of way back then and we have a great sex life now, and three kids and were the perfect family. I just have to go through life with this really big secret hanging over my head but I figure most people have one secret or another they are hidning.

Thanks for listening and please don't be too judgmental.