Just Want To Be Used

I'm laying in bed next to my girlfriend right now as I type this out.

And while she's laying here next to me naked, all I can think about is being some submissive bottom and a cock slut to some Dom big dick guy.

I've had these urges since my younger days, would say round about 15 years old, I loved watching porn and masturbating to gay porn as it seemed like such a taboo and I'd often make fun of others for being gay, until I saw a huge cock of a teacher of mine, after school one day I was the only student in detention and my teacher (Mr. Adams) told me I could leave if I helped clean his classroom.

When he said I could start cleaning under his desk I was okay with it. As Im cleaning under sweeping Mr.Adams says he wants me to clean under his desk but I had to get in the floor and scr**e the desk from the bottom, while I'm down there Mr.Adams sits down and his legs are touching my back, I turn around and see his whole bulge in my face and him staring at me, I immediately knew what he wanted and my urges just took ahold of me.

10mins later and I've swallowed his cum busy walking out the school on my way home and since then, cock has been my addiction.

I've had sex a few times but not as hard or rough as I would like, I need to be used and made a cockslut to many men, I need cum in my throat and belly all day long, I fuck my self with my dildo on many occasions and my asshole is so loose, I'm scared my girlfriend finds out about it but the thrill of cock is so great.