I Got Caught

I've been blowing my neighbor for year. Both of our spouses continued working and we were stuck at home. We flirted and joked and one day I found out he wasn't joking. He took his dick out. He was hard and it was so beautiful and I wanted it in my mouth and I broke down and sucked him off. I really enjoyed it. Felt so guilty and planned to never do it again but he was into me blowing him and I was having strong urges I couldn't get out of my mind. I sucked him off again, then again and soon it was just our thing I was sucking him off all week every week. He'd walk over to my house and I'd blow him most of the time in my bed but sometimes in fun places like the front foyer or the kitchen, or the shed, doing laundry whatever.

His wife caught us. She stayed home one day, he wanted head, came over for his daily blow job, she was suspicious and walked in on me on my knees in my living room with his dick in my mouth. So much heartache. He was a dumb fuck sneaking over like he did and I was an idiot for cheating.

Now no more blow jobs for him, and I don't get to make love to his beautiful cock anymore. I was so terrified of what was going to happen when she told my husband I planned on just denying it no matter what saying it was a misunderstanding but she came over one day and asked me for the truth. I told her. I was lonely at home during Covid, we grew close and our sexual urges took over and I'd been blowing him regularly. She got emotional and asked about sex, how much sex, how often do we fuck. I mean the answer was never, we never fucked. Never did anything but me sucking his dick. She calmed way down, insisted I tell the truth, I swore we never fucked and for whatever reason she was ok with that. She asked about kissing. Kissing of all things and I realized we'd never kissed even once other than hello and goodbye but never for real. She was so relieved it was so strange that kissing meant so much to her.

I don't really understand but she was ok with it. She said that she and he still had enough sex to satisfy her and if I want to blow her husband she is good with it as long as she never hears about it or anyone finds out because she doesn't want to be humiliated and as long as it doesn't go any further. I was the one feeling humiliated, she walked in on me sucking her husband's dick and now she's telling me it's ok as long as I don't fuck him. Or kiss him I guess.

It's been almost a month and she hasn't told my husband. We've actually hung out with them in a group setting twice since and it's really awkward for me but she's nice to me. She has squeezed my arm multiple times saying "relax it's ok don't worry" but I feel like hell. She hugs and kisses me goodnight and whispers to me how she loves me and that there's no worries. She grabbed me one day to tell me to stop worrying and to go back to what I was doing and to enjoy myself but I don't feel right about it now that she knows its changed it somehow to where I just don't want to anymore. He wants to go back to what it was but even tho I think about his cock still I'm so uncomfortable and sad I just want it to fade into the past.