Been So Long Now

I have not had sex with another male for over 12 years. I had sex with a girl cousin when I was 15 and loved it. Eventually experimenting we had anal sex as well. She was the first to stick her fingers in my butt when she would blow me, I liked the feeling. Moving away we couldn't see each other any more. The only outlet I had was an older married man who lived near me. He blew me in his basement with two fingers fucking my hole. We went upstairs to eat with his wife and then went back downstairs to "work". I got fucked down there. That started my being a bottom to him, sometimes I got a blowjob but mainly I got fucked and I sucked him. He would use his hand on me sometimes, other times I did it myself. Mostly I did it after he was done, or when I'd go back home and think about him fucking me.

During college I had sex with four other students - male, and one TA. Again, I was mainly the bottom, though the one I had the longest relationship with, he was the bottom. I loved anal sex, mainly giving but receiving felt really good too. During that time I was dating college girls, and one older woman who loved hearing about my sex adventures, gay and straight. Once I got married to a girl I got pregnant, I stopped fucking with anyone else but her. Her body is wonderful, she's incredibly pretty, and even after two kids hasn't gone over her college weight. She lets me do anal to her too, knowing how much I like it. What she doesn't know is how much I like getting anal fucked too. Nor does she know that I've had several cocks in my mouth and in my ass. I really want to feel that again. I want a man to fuck me in my ass. When I fantasize, that is what I'm thinking about. I want to be nude with another made and spread my legs, pull them up and have him pinch and roll my nipples while his big cock pounds in and out of my ass.

I can't help it, over the last year I want it so bad.