Who Am I?

I'm this girl who is very polite, soft, kind and dependable. I'm hardworking and try to be perfect on all levels. I have always had unconventional wild sexual drives and dreams but never put them in action. Because I am intelligent and think and ponder too much. Being naturally pretty but shy, I have always dreamed of going with older men, trying some weird kinks or being r**ed by a man.

Why? Who knows. But recently, after some troubles in my straight relationship, I discovered myself fantasizing about women. All about women porn. Women domination. Gosh I am so mixed. I am so lucky to NOT have any dominant girl friends or god knows how much my sexual drive would torture me. I am worried honestly, I am shy but gosh so curious. I wish I was born extroverted because I have the curiosity to try everything. I confess that I am not as holy as I appear.