My Lovely Aunt

Ah.. I'm 23 year old. When I was 10 that time she came in our family after marring with my uncle.. she was soo beautiful that time.. I was very small to understand things like this bt I remember her touch for me it was the first touch of my life from young beautiful women.. after time passes I got huge crush on her.. now I really love her bt I can't tell her abt it.. bcoz she's my aunt nd she's much older than me..Bt I really wanna have sex with her.. she is boner for me.. I do masturbations sometimes with her inners.. at list in a once I wanna kiss her.. bt our relation is stopping me.. it's so awkward for me to be in loved with a family member and wanna have sex with. Few days ago she came to our home for some holidays I gave her a romantic book for read and she finished it. After that we started talking about book and romantism.. and she started telling me she also wants someone who can understand her soul.. she speaks abt our generation and she asked me have you ever had sex? I said no bcoz I didn't. Bt it was very awkward moment for me. Is it ok to he virgin at 23? Was she just casually talking with me abt that topic just bcoz I'm not teen now. Should tell her my feelings.. I really don't know what to do.