Never Made Love

I was married at 17, he was nice to me and I was virgin on my wedding night. He was older, at 23 and my parents approved and liked him. He fucked me on our wedding night twice, once in my vagina and once in my butt. He had me give him blowjobs before we were married and would suck on my boobs. We were married until he died a year ago. I came to love him though that had to grow on me. We had kids and I got fucked thousands of times. I got fucked from age 17 till I was 51. I never had him make love to me, he always fucked me. I only through talk with other women found out about orgasms and that I could, and DID, it to myself.

Now at 52, a chubby old blonde who is going slightly gray and I want to know what it is like to be made love to, not to be fucked, but to make love. I just feel odd and at my age, I really don't want anyone seeing me naked this way, but I'd like to know what it's like.

been fucked thousands of times, never made love.