Confused

So I confess I am an over sexed guy and must be due to missing out on dates from the covid. I been watching lots of internet porn and doing a awful lot of wanking.
The messed up thing is I started to watch this gay cross dresser porn and it makes me want to shag one of those soft girly arseholes real good. Give them cheeks a good spanking first, make her moan and yelp like a bitch who begs for it.