Persistent Thoughts

I want to engage in so many things...

I wanna be in a gangbang. I'm not especially long or deep if the length of my fingers means anything, and my gag reflex decided to make a reappearance after high school, but I don't feel much pain during and in fact enjoy that slight hint of burning stretch when masturbating. I want a cock in every hole. I've tried to fist myself, that's some difficult stuff when you're not especially flexible or skinny; so close to my goal but unable to truly reach.

The anticipation of someone opening my bedroom door because it's been awhile since I was last seen also seems to get me going even faster. Thinking about pornhub casting roleplay-slash-'don't eat' tags makes me horny without a solid touch let alone a single roll of my hips. I have to keep buying underwear. Lately I've hyper fixated on these thoughts so much I can't sleep without coming at least twice in a row.

I want to know if I'd enjoy the taste of another's cum; I enjoy mine even when I've rubbed myself raw getting it. Based on that impression I want to suck out a cream pie or three straight from a pussy or out of a deep kiss if I find I do enjoy it. Feed me my own cum, even.

I want to know if I'm actually willing to indulge piss kink or if it just sounds hot. I don't want a taste but I'm willing to take it inside. I hear straight water isn't the best for enemas but the body can deal with piss much better. Mark your territory like a wild animal.

Cum lube sounds great. I wonder how much it would take to fill me.

I want a pair of tits i could just play with however or whenever I wanted. Big or small, perky or saggy, puffy or inverted nipples, it really doesn't matter to me. I've got a bit of an oral fixation, I'd like something to suck on, and just about everyone has a nipple.

I want my own nipples sucked so often my body thinks I have a baby and produces milk without even a hint of pregnancy. I kinda want someone to think I'm pregnant anyway.

(If you can't tell, I've developed a bit of a breeding kink, even if I don't know if it's a function of increasing age, evolving libido, or deep loneliness and self hatred. Probably all four).

I want someone to just use my body while I sleep. Fill me up and wake me with round three leaking out of my available holes. Hell, do it as I'm otherwise engaged in another activity, I won't mind.

Wanting someone who can lift me and wanting someone I could lift are constantly at war in my desires. Do I want to plow or be plowed? Both is good, add me as your occasional switch-y third. I've got a tongue that absolutely destroys jello shots within three seconds to offer up, don't even need to bother sucking.

I want to keep a toy inside as I go about my day knowing that no one would possibly guess what I was doing. I want to ride the wave as I feel it try to spill out as I cum.

I want to be the type of person to just wander the house basically naked so everyone I meet has easy access to my body. I'm curious how many times I can get off before my body sends me into unconsciousness.

I want to hold someone in my lap while I tease them to completion, just get them so fucked out that their eyes glaze over as I just keep using their body for my own curiosities of how much they can take, too. Maybe see if I can come undone myself.

I want a photo of my insides as I'm held open for viewing pleasure. Mirrors can prove difficult.

Just lay on me, we don't need to do anything but enjoy each other's company right now.

Would you be willing to fullfill my bucket list?