I Think I Am In Love With My Rapist...

I am a 26 yr old white female. 5-5, 110 and pretty hot. I am a nurse at a local hospital and enjoy my job. 3 weeks ago I went clubbing with some friends on a Sat night. Since high school I have only dated black guys and have a thing for the "thug" type guys. We were on our second club when I hit the jackpot. A very tall, handsome black guy, around my age, hit me up and started a conversation. His name was Darren. We had a drink, danced and then he invited me back to his place to smoke some weed. He said he lived close by (around the corner). With my job I know I shouldn't smoke but I didn't want this guy to think I was a prude. When we got to his place and there were 2 young guys, maybe 19-20, already there and the smoke filled the room. He introduced one as his younger brother and the other as a friend. We joined in. After a few hits I suggested we go back to the club. When I stood up Darren yelled "bitch, you ain't paid for the weed yet". I got scared and dug into my purse for some money. Darren stood up and said "money ain't gonna do it". Without a word the 2 young boys grabbed me. One held my arms behind my back and the other pulled my dress up and tried to pull my panties down. I kicked and fought back so he just ripped the tiny panties off me and threw them on the floor. They pulled me down on the couch and held my arms. Before I knew it Darren on me and was forcing my thighs apart. I felt his cock rubbing against my pussy. Then he started pushing. I got really scared because he felt really big!. I had been with black men before and wasn't a stranger to really big cocks, but I wasn't prepared, wasn't wet so it hurt. After he pushed inside me he started fucking me steady. I was crying and begging him to stop. But at the same time I was getting super wet and the pain went away. A minute later I had an strong orgasm. Darren realized how my body was reacting, he bent down and actually tried to kiss me. I turned my head away I was so embarrassed that my body was enjoying being r**ed. After I refused his kiss Darren just started pounding me as hard as he could. I couldn't help it I had another orgasm, my legs stiffened up and I felt my pussy tighten. Darren held his cock inside me and started grunting as he unloaded his cum into me. He held his cock inside me for a minute before he finally stood up When he did I saw a what had just violated me. Getting soft his cock was still 8 inches and was covered in white cum and my juices. He sat down and lit up a joint. The boys had loosed their grip on ma and I just laid there. Finally Darren spoke up and said "ok, you guys can have some fun". The boys again grabbed me. The pushed me down in the floor as they both undressed. They put me on all 4's and I didn't fight back this time. I just let them do whatever to get it over with. One shoved his cock in my pussy as the other ordered me to open my mouth. Their cocks were probably 7 inches each, but felt small compared to Darren. I was just numb. It didn't take long before the younger brother unloaded in my pussy. His friend quickly took his place. I remember hearing the "squishing" noises as he fucked me. He kept complaining to the other guys how sloppy my pussy was. After he came in me I just laid down in the floor for several minutes. All 3 of them just ignored me and acted like nothing happened. I finally stood up, pulled my dress down and walked out. As I walked out to the street I felt the cum running down my thighs. I took a cab home. The next day I went to a store and got a "plan B" kit , as I was not on birth control. 2 weeks went by and I told no one. I had conflicted feelings. On one hand I hated being r**ed and knew it was wrong. I even had some nightmares about the experience. On the other hand I felt ashamed that my body enjoyed being used like that.

2 weeks to the day after my r**e I put on the same dress and went back to the club alone. I hung around for about 2 hours and did not see Darren. I don't know why but I walked around the corner and walked into Darren's building. When I knocked on the door someone yelled, "it's open". When I walked in Darren and his brother were there and both looked VERY surprised. Darren spoke up and said "what are you doing here?" I never said a word, I reached down and pulled my skirt up enough to reveal that I wasn't wearing panties. When Darren saw my bare, freshly shaved pussy he got up and told his brother "she's mine tonight". He led me into the bedroom. I immediately stripped down and got on my knees. I undid his pants and pulled them down. I started sucking his cock like someone was holding a gun to my head. When he was ready he threw me on the bed and fucked the hell out of me. He fucked me twice in every position possible. I lost count of the orgasm's and when he finished I could feel a river of cum leaking out of my pussy. I curled up next to him and we both fell asleep. The next morning I woke him up stroking his cock. I looked into his eyes and asked him to "please fuck me again". He rolled on top of me, grabbed my ankles and pushed them back around my head. My pussy was sore from the pounding I took last night, but I didn't complain. After he unloaded in me for the 3rd time we both got dressed and he walked me to the door. I gave him a long kiss goodbye and asked him if I could come back. He said "anytime". I have gone to his place several times this week and for some twisted reason I love how Darren uses me. He treats me like piece of fuck meat for his pleasure. I can't get enough of it. Each time I see Darren he manages to push the envelope a little. He has asked me to serviced his brother and friend a couple of times and I did. Last night Darren took my anal cherry. I have to admit it HURT LIKE HELL taking a 10 inch monster in my ass and I can barely walk today but I will do anything to make him happy.