Wondering

When I was younger, nineteen, I had this kind of gay friendship with an older guy. He was in his late fifties and divorced, and he told me how sometimes he enjoyed doing things with another guy. Well, he talked me into getting naked with him and messing around, and it was fun. We this together a few times and then he said how he liked to have his butt fucked. I was a little reluctant, but I did it to him and he loved it and I found it wasn’t too bad.

So after that I would go over to his house and we would spend time being naked together and I would fuck him. Then, feeling curious, I let him butt fuck me occasionally and I kind of liked it when he did, and I enjoyed having his penis in my butt and experiencing the maleness of that. We never used a condom and I found it quite exciting to have him put his semen into me. This went on between us for a little over a year and then I moved away for work, and eventually I got married.

After fifteen years I was divorced, and without too much difficulty I rediscovered the pleasure of male sex. Now for the last four years I have tentatively started to consider myself as being gay. I don’t mind this although I don’t necessarily feel dedicated to it either, and I am somewhat put off by the negative connotations of this label. What I am wondering is are there any other older guys out there who find themselves in this same situation?