Gave Away My Manhood

I had a bad break up with a girlfriend who I thought I would likely marry about a month ago. Though the last couple of conversations were ugly I maintained hope that we could reconcile. That ended when I pathetically went by our old place to try and talk with her. I stood outside debating on knocking on her door when I heard voices or sounds coming from inside. I walked down her steps and looked up at our first floor apartment and could see that the far side living room window was partially open. Knowing it was not smart but unable to stop myself I grabbed a five gallon bucket nearby, stood on it and looked inside. She was lying underneath some naked dude with her legs spread wide. Just in that moment the guy arched up and they both screamed. He was sweaty and by the intensity in his face it was clear that he was in the throws of an intense orgasm as I had been with her hundreds of times. I stood shocked and sick unable to look away. The horrible spell was broken when the guy finally stood and I saw his limp dripping cock and realized he hadn’t even been wearing a condom. Immediately rushed to the alley and puked. For A week I could not get the vision of the guy sweaty and intensely filling my beautiful girlfriend full of his cum. It kept me awake at night with horrible visions of them doing things to each other like a porn film, her pregnant laughing with him wondering if he had already figured out the secret so I know like how she came really hard when I Licked her ass.

So this went on to the point where I thought I was going crazy. I am not a bad looking guy, I’m thin in good shape And women have always seem attracted to me. I decided I needed to get even so I got on a hooker website, posted some pictures of myself and was just looking to get laid as fast as possible. Pretty quickly I noticed that 90% of the contacts I was getting more from Men. I was frustrated with this as I have never been with a man and never considered it. One night though I went out with some friends and came home a little bit tipsy and started looking on the site. I was just very horny and I received an instant message from a guy. His pictures were attractive about my age. So I sent him an innocuous message back and we begin to chat. He finally asked me if I wanted to come to his place for a blow job. I think because he lives pretty close and assured me that he would stay anonymous or respect my privacy I decided to do it. I put on a T-shirt and a pair of shorts And went to his place. I felt very uncomfortable but he was cool and as soon as I walked in the door to pull my shorts down, cupped my balls And gave me without question the most mind blowing blow job I’ve ever had. Afterwords we just Exchanged pleasantries and I heard out. Two days later he contacted me again and I went back. This time he was naked I saw That he had a beautiful perfect physique and a really large penis. This time we talked a bit and sit on the couch and he started to give me another fantastic blowjob but this time He really got into licking my balls and they even let him lick underneath And when his tongue ran over my asshole I moaned so loudly that it surprised myself. It felt so good that it was almost out of body for me and I could hear my own voice moaning and whimpering and sounding almost feminine. When he saw that it was driving me crazy he intensified, Pushed my legs up and stuck his tongue inside of my hole. I was saying oh God baby please please. He lifted up and placed the head of his very hard cock on my asshole and said let me try it baby. I thought both as if I was giving up my manhood but also so turned on that I just didn’t even feel in control of myself. I said nothing but pushed my ass towards him. He clearly took that as my acquiescence and pushed himself until his fat cock push through my tight Virgin hole and plunged deep into me. I screamed and both pain and unbelievable, never even dreamt of pleasure. He put my legs on his shoulders and began to fuck my ass. I was moaning, begging and whimpering. He was talking very dirty to me which heightened my pleasure and he suddenly arched his back pushed as deep into me as he could and released huge gobs of his come deep inside of me. While he was whimpering and emptying himself and me he cupped my balls with one hand And stroke my dick with the other and I quickly screamed and shot my own come all over my belly and chest. It was far and away The most intense pleasurable sexual experience of my life. Afterwards I just lay there and he held me gently rubbing my ass while he kissed the back of my shoulders. I finally got up without saying too much dressed and left after agreeing that I would see him again.

My ass was so sore for a couple of days I could hardly sit and I was somewhat embarrassed and feeling like my manhood was gone that I had Turn some corner that I had never even considered. But I also realized I didn’t think or even care about my ex girlfriend and my thoughts were about my new fat friend, who I finally had the courage to ask his name and give mine. In the weeks since I have let him fuck me about six or seven times. We even spent this past weekend in the four seasons Hotel in downtown Chicago we’re all we did was stay naked have incredible sex and order room service. He has been telling me that he was in love with me and didn’t want to be a part. Finally late Saturday night when we were laying in the hotel bed and he had just pulled out of me again and we were laying back to back and he was again gently rubbing my ass fingering his come dripping out of it and kissing my shoulders. I turned over grabbed him and said that I loved him too.

Now we have been apart for three days and I realize that I do really love him and I do not want to be away from him. My ex called me Monday night. We talked briefly and she admitted she had been seeing someone but had broken it off and told me she missed me terribly. I found myself not at all interested but didn’t want to be cruel so I just told her the truth that I had met a guy and never considered exploring that but believed that I was going to spend some time with him. She cried I wasn’t mean but strangely tried to pry some sexual questions out of me. I tried to avoid them but she finally just asked if I would tell her whether I had Let him enter me. I thought it and an odd question but I just admitted to her that I had. She said that she hoped I was practicing safe sex and I laughed to myself thinking about the guy standing up just after coming inside of her with no condom. I didn’t mention that to her but I did say that I trusted him and I had let him come inside of me on multiple occasions and I was not worried. To my surprise it seem to make her want to see me even more. After much back-and-forth I finally agreed to see her this coming Friday and I know she is going to try and reestablish some sexual relationship with me but I am not going to do it in fact I am going to cancel Friday afternoon because I don’t want to wait to see him anymore. I don’t want to hurt her but I think I truly am in love.

My new man Michael had previously floated the idea of me moving in with him and tonight I am going to tell him that I will. It is a strange turn of events But I have never felt like I do now.