I'm The Bad One Here

There's a guy in my dance group... A long long time ago we had something, but he got together with another girl... So i tried to move on, but it's been years and i still couldn't let go of him even though i know i should.
Every time we drink a little we end up dancing together - much closer than we should, much more intense than we should..
I just can't help myself when i'm with him. I try my best to control but at the same time i don't want to. I just want to let go end get him - all the ways possible. I want him to be mine and me to be his.. Today we got really close, but we managed to stop.. He still has a gf and i'm trying to respect it, but he's everything i want right now
I know i'm the bad guy here rn, but i just can't help myself