New Perspective

I am white and grew up in a black neighborhood. Have been there all my life and theyre really nice people. I tried my best to get along with all the kids around and it went well for the most part. Some didn't like me for their own reasons but we are overall a solid community. Seeing all the talks about racism nowadays just honestly kinda confuses me and like i can't even understand why people would feel hatred towards others just because they look different??? Maybe it's just me i dunno but i don't see them as being any different. As i grew up i've had a couple bfs throughout middle and high school but i wouldn't say i was the most attractive. I am short at 5'4, keep fit and always had a nice body i was confident about (thanks mom and dad for the good genes lmao). Now onto the story about my perspective change. When i was around 16 i started dressing differently to fit my body as my boobs were kinda big already and my ass was round and plump thanks to all the exercising i did. I felt pretty and confident. That's when it began, the guys in the neighborhood would give me more attention... A different kind of attention. Their eyes were on me, i was complimented a lot on my looks. The married guys, the old guys, the young guys who were just a little older than me too. It really like filled me with such confidence i was pretty much flaunting it. Now i am fully aware of the effect i have on the men surrounding me. I am aware that i am pretty but i don't show it off to everyone like i am superior since my parents always told me to always be humble. But the attention and feeling of being like a star is so great i can only give them back by dressing a bit slutty from time to time. I love the attention. I love that married men look at me instead of their wives. I will never get tired of it. I didn't date many guys but i got the most attention in my neighborhood and it made no sense to me. I mean i'd have enjoyed more attention at school but it was just from the worst guys ew. Then i listened closely to some compliments i get and i hear stuff like white babe, sexy little white girl, my favorite white hottie. It was clear to me then. Black guys prefer white girls. I'm not saying that i'm better than black girls because i'm good friends with plenty. It's just that maybe there is a reason why the prettiest women everywhere are always white and i could like see why i got more attention compared to my black girl friends, though not as much as the really hot girls at school. But it's ok, it made me feel lucky i was born in a body most people would find attractive and i keep it maintained. But in the end its a matter if preference. The men in my neighborhood like me more because im the only white young girl in the area and i do my best to look good and desirable. It might not be the case elsewhere. I for sure enjoy the attention even more each day. I even shake my ass and tits and tease them a little all the time. They make me confident and i am grateful, even though i'm probably just fap material for them