Messed Up

So I’m in love with this beautiful girl that loves me but I fucked up badly. She is so hot and has such a perfect body that I let myself get way to carried away with pushing her to talk dirty and letting her believe I loved the kinky talk and I think she plays along because she knows how it gets me off. Especially when she is drinking I can really get her to play along. During one of those conversations I got her to admit that one of her former boyfriends had a huge dick. She downplayed it and said he was a selfish lover and things but my self esteem issues coupled with my freakish attachment to her body got it stuck in my head. So instead of being smart and letting it go I let it run in my head and started trying to figure out who the guy was. She left her phone out one time while showering and I was able to find out for sure. I also forwarded her messages to my tablet which was also not good. So several weeks after we got into a big fight, which I really caused by my jealousy which she didn’t even know as I never said anything. So during the fight I grabbed some clothes and stomped out and said I was going to a friends. She called me later sobbing and apologizing even though she hadn’t done anything wrong. I played the hard ass though and stone walled her. About a week later I still hadn’t really talked to her and I went by a bar where we had hung out when we first started dating. Before I walked in I saw her inside with some girlfriends and I could tell she was tipsy by her smile and laugh. What I did next I will always regret. I went back to my car, got on my tablet and texted her ex using her account. I just said “hi” to him and he almost immediately texted back “Wow! Surprised to hear from you! What’s going on?” I sat for a moment and texted back “Drinking a bit too much. At the old joint in Uptown. Thought of you” There was no response for several minutes and then finally. “Where’s the great love of your life, soulmate”. I thought I would probably love to punch this douche but instead I typed back “ We broke up” It was silent for several minutes but then “I’m assuming you’re calling because you miss my cock not me. I’ll come there baby but I want to be clear. I want that great pussy of yours again tonight. Don’t you dare tease me and say you can’t do it to him or some shit. I do miss your fine ass but I thought you hated me. I would love to fuck you again”. I sat for several minutes thinking I was so proud of her that she had got this douchebag out of her life. And yet, my fucked up head needed to scratch some itch. As I sat staring at my tablet it beeped again and he sent “???” And then “Listen it’s cool if you were just scratching some itch texting me but just be honest with me. I want to get this big dick wet if I come there”. “Ok”. Almost immediately he texted back “ok what?” I texted right back. “Come here. Soon”. He texted “ On my way sexy. You’ll be begging in an hour” I took one more look at my beautiful baby laughing in the bar and drove off. I went to my friends changed into a t shirt and shorts and drove back to our apartment. I let myself in and went into our bedroom and turned on a low night light at the base of the bed and then hid in the closet behind her hanging dresses. A perfect spot to see the bedroom but hidden really well. I expected a long wait but only about 45 minutes later I heard the front door open. When I heard two voices I felt sick and immediately wanted to jump out but I held back. I heard her come into the bedroom and say “ Thank you for the ride I need to get in bed” then a mans voice “What did we talk about baby? We need to get this done” she said “you keep saying that, but I’m with someone” and him “ you’re not that drunk baby. You said you guys were broke up” I could tell she pretty tipsy when she replied “We’re in a fight but we’re not broke up.. I hope” Again I felt sick and wanted to stop it but I was frozen. She said she haD to pee and went into the bathroom. After she went into the bathroom he stepped into my full view. He was tall maybe 6’01” and lean. He quickly stripped off his clothes, except for his socks and turned toward a full length mirror right to my right outside of the closet. His cock was indeed fucking huge. He was very white skin like he was Irish or English and his busy was red but his dick literally hung to his mid thigh andwa as thick as her tiny wrists. There was a vein runnnig down the middle of it the size of a pencil. I just couldn’t imagine they got that big. It was a solid ten inches without exaggeration. He stood looking at himself in the mirror and began stroking himself. Quickly he was very hard. I was just a monstrous cock and I realized I likely wasn’t gay because it repulsed me but yet I was still frozen with some fucked up fascination. When I heard the bathroom door click I thought to myself that I didn’t want this freak anywhere near my sweet Natalie. To be shock and horror Nat was naked when she walked out of the bathroom. He said “Oh yes baby. You shaved that pussy clean. I love that shit” in fact she had waxed it fir me on m6 birthday which I loved. But she told him “David why are you here? I’m in love” he walked toward her, picked her tiny perfect body up and said “This is just about the nut baby. I know you want this dick again.” She replied “ I can’t David. You know I can’t just do that. It took me weeks last time”. He just carried her to the bed and laid her on it. She said nothing as he began to lick her pussy. My heart sank as I saw her place a hand on his head and push his face into her pussy. Then a few seconds later her back arched and here perfect Insanely large breasts for her small body stretched fo4 the ceiling. He obviously felt it and lifted up between her legs, grabbed his log of a cock and began to rub it on her slit. She said “Easy” but he began to push himself inside of her. He was moaning and her face was tight like she was baring down. Finally his hips slid forward and he let out “aaahhhhh fuck yes”. Natalie grunted and let out a long heavy breath like she was releasing energy. He began to fuck her and with ever stroke Nat grunted loudly like she was being punched in the gut. I began to think that it really wasn’t fun for her but suddenly he grabbed her under her ass and behind her neck and began to pound her tiny pussy so hard I could here the suction from her c**t when he pulled back. Her grunts gave way to light squeals and then suddenly as guttural release of energy in a muffled scream that told me she was cummin* like I’d never heard. It went on for seconds until she screamed “God oh god please please please. Ahhhhhhhhhh!” I knew he had a spot deep in her that set he4 loose. He seemed oblivious and continued to pump her even though she’d gone limp. She did pull her legs up for some relief I guess. He suddenly said do it fo4 my baby, do it” she told him to not cum inside of her and the reached around and grabbed his ass. She took her right hand and reached into his ass and slid her middle finger into his ass while he fucked her he moaned like a bitch when she fingered him and his ass cheeks suddenly clinched and he bit down on her shoulder, howled and pumped his cum deep in her womb.. he finally rolled off. Got on his knees and put his cock head on her lips and said “ empty me sexy, finish me” she kind of licked his monster cockhead but the said “Damn it Dave you came so much in me”. He said” you’re to good baby, I couldn5 hold it.. can i suck it out of you?She said “ David, I don’t hate you but I have no feelings for you or your big dick. For the tenth time. I’m in love and now I have fucked someone else and I feel like shit. Please, if you ever cared for me at all. Leave now. He said. “Fair enough babe. You promised me a nut and I got it. See you sometime or not”. He dressed quickly, pissed and walked out of our apartment. My Natalie curled up in a ball and pulled the blanket# up around her. I could hear her sobbing softly and then finally the shallow breathing and light alcohol induced snoring that told me sh3 was out.I snuck out of the apartment. When I sat in my car I cried and felt horrible. It was 4:30 am. I waited until 7 am and let myself back into the apartment. I walked in the bedroom and sat on the bed beside her. I put my hand on her and said “ Nat”. She opened her eyes slightly in an obvious drunken haze but then bolted up when she saw me. She said “ Oh god baby. It’s you.”: I told her I’d been an ass and I was so sorry and I loved her. She cried and hugged me and said “ God I love you baby. I’m dyin* without you. Please come home. Marry me. Never leave me “. I kissed and hugged her and she cried and held me. But I stopped and set “ Natalie what is that on you shoulder.. a large bite mark, hickie. She looked in horror. I said” I don’t want to fight baby but 6ou smell like you have been fucking. I love that smell when it’s us but it can5 be”. She sa5 with her hands in her lap. “ Baby please marry me. Say you will, please”. I said Natalie tell me the truth or we move on. She looked at 5he ceiling and wailed. She finally ripped the covers off herself and said “ baby I am a piece of shit. I just fucked a guy that I used to date. I don’t even know why or how we ended up here but I did it. I’m so sorry. I love you so much”.Natalie was it the ex with the big cock? She cried and shook her head yes. Did you want him baby? Miss it? “ No way baby I swear I don’t know how we got together. I love you. I swear.